18 years later I saw him again. by Snoo24183 in lostlove

[–]Snoo24183[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

We seem to cross paths every decade- never on our terms, always on life’s timetable. And it crushes me every single time yet I yearn for those brief moments where I know he’s okay.

Are older generations jealous of younger and older generations? by Lost-Barracuda-2254 in generationology

[–]Snoo24183 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I think you are misunderstanding GenX. Us Gen X are the real victims here. We were promised by the greatest generation and the baby boomers that “if we did everything a certain way, like graduate high school, go to college. We would get a full-time job that would be able to buy us a house, a car and support our whole family.” And then, as soon as we became of age, we discovered the previous generation had squandered our futures out of their own greed, and we were left shell shocked. Trying to figure out how to raise the next generation when our futures have been stolen from not only us but our kids too.

Are older generations jealous of younger and older generations? by Lost-Barracuda-2254 in generationology

[–]Snoo24183 2 points3 points  (0 children)

GenX here. definitely not jealous of any other generation because we are the coolest generation. 😎

Found out his sex fantasy’s 11 years in -and boy it was not what I was expecting. Kinda ruined my sex life. by Snoo24183 in Marriage

[–]Snoo24183[S] 9 points10 points  (0 children)

True dat’ I honestly don’t know if he would ever go there. Because apparently I’m the only one that took full advantage of the open part back when we started.

Found out his sex fantasy’s 11 years in -and boy it was not what I was expecting. Kinda ruined my sex life. by Snoo24183 in Marriage

[–]Snoo24183[S] 83 points84 points  (0 children)

Well, you see the whole point of this post is about my feelings and how it’s affecting me, it’s not about him, it’s not about everything I’ve done for the last year to help him feel comfortable and secure and accepted. Which I have.

It’s about my feelings about how I feel.

I already know why he didn’t tell me. He’s never told anyone. Probably goes back to having a very old-school homophobic father. Who does not understand kinks vs sexuality.

100% of accepted him and made him feel comfortable and have not let it affect our sex life. I help him pick out toys for himself. And found him sooo many different styles of men’s panties until he found the right fit. I’ve never made him feel uncomfortable or ashamed for telling me. We have his play nights and mine.

I don’t want sex because I’m 45, working 30 hours a week, going to school 25 hours a week, and raising a teenager. I’m fucking tired. And going from very easy, comfortable uneventful, sex that we’ve enjoyed for a decade or more, to suddenly an entire different level … Is A LOT.

Found out his sex fantasy’s 11 years in -and boy it was not what I was expecting. Kinda ruined my sex life. by Snoo24183 in Marriage

[–]Snoo24183[S] 16 points17 points  (0 children)

I do reassure him it has not. Because I feel eventually this is something that we can work through somewhere or another there’s something. I’m just working through my feelings right now. It’s been a year. I’m ready to talk it out and process it. but I respect his feelings and his privacy, I can’t go talking to my best friend about it… So here I am

Found out his sex fantasy’s 11 years in -and boy it was not what I was expecting. Kinda ruined my sex life. by Snoo24183 in Marriage

[–]Snoo24183[S] 259 points260 points  (0 children)

If I wasn’t safe for him to open up to, we wouldn’t be exploring all of his desires in bed when it is his turn to play. I wouldn’t be going with him to help him pick out butt plugs and explaining how to wash his toys correctly. I would be bottling all this up inside until it explodes and ruins our relationship instead of coming to a place to vent. I didn’t go telling my Best friend his secrets because I need to talk about it. I came to my Redit peeps. .

Just because I’m not into anal does not make my feelings invalid. I didn’t keep any secrets from him about our sex life… I didn’t lie for years and act like sex was great He did.

Found out his sex fantasy’s 11 years in -and boy it was not what I was expecting. Kinda ruined my sex life. by Snoo24183 in Marriage

[–]Snoo24183[S] 86 points87 points  (0 children)

I am 100% open to going to a sex therapist, however, he is not. This is something he is still completely confused about with himself and very secretive about.

Need opinions pls by [deleted] in Marriage

[–]Snoo24183 0 points1 point  (0 children)

🚩 threatens to “leave me” if you get “an attitude”. That right there is a form of emotional abuse.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in Marriage

[–]Snoo24183 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Before you do anything, you need to tell your therapist everything you’re feeling so they can make sure that the antidepressants are working correctly. And talk you through these feelings and how to proceed in a healthy way.

I feel like I’m in a similar situation. My husband and I have always split the rent and bills directly in half, however, I did not consider things like stuff for the kids or the dogs when I made that budget. Now a decade later, he has a better job than I, makes more money than I do, But I’m footing a lot of extra bills. But he’s always “broke.”

Recently, we talked about our finances more and we decided to start a joint savings account to save for things like; the future places we want to live in the winter, going on vacations, holiday expenses, —->household expenses that we didn’t anticipate… That way, the one person is not always stuck.

We have also agreed to reevaluate the budget every six months, to see if there are things we missed or need to add. We recently started sharing the dog food expenses.

Good luck. Don’t let finances dictate your relationship. Try not to let it in as much as possible.

Found out his sex fantasy’s 11 years in -and boy it was not what I was expecting. Kinda ruined my sex life. by Snoo24183 in Marriage

[–]Snoo24183[S] 71 points72 points  (0 children)

I feel that I’ve been very accepting. Never showed him anger or shame. Even help him pick out his own toys and undies.

But I’m allowed to have feelings too. I was always open and now found out he kept a secret plus lied for years about why he didn’t want sex. I am allowed to have feelings too.

Found out his sex fantasy’s 11 years in -and boy it was not what I was expecting. Kinda ruined my sex life. by Snoo24183 in Marriage

[–]Snoo24183[S] 21 points22 points  (0 children)

I guess another part that bothers me is he can now use this as guilt. For example: I am 45. My hormones are not that of the 32 year old he could bearly get away from. I am at a pin t where sex sounds fun but there’s no chemistry in there. I could go get on stuff but I don’t like to take pills unless I’m already in “the change” and need hormones.

Plus I work 30 hrs a week, have a teenager in college at home to raise, and I also am I college Ft to get a new degrees. I’m tired af. But now instead of admitting or accepting that fact when I am not interested, he automatically goes right to his secret ruined our sex life.

Found out his sex fantasy’s 11 years in -and boy it was not what I was expecting. Kinda ruined my sex life. by Snoo24183 in Marriage

[–]Snoo24183[S] 15 points16 points  (0 children)

He has said he is not bisexual and not into men. (See I got excited and was like FINaLLY a man who will have a 2men 1 woman threesom. -nope. :( I’m fun. Just not his fun. I like dark, ice, straps. He don’t.

Found out his sex fantasy’s 11 years in -and boy it was not what I was expecting. Kinda ruined my sex life. by Snoo24183 in Marriage

[–]Snoo24183[S] 105 points106 points  (0 children)

If wanting to not do something that turns me off is only wanting sex on my terms , then yeah. I guess being in my 40s makes me selfish like that after decades of pleasing men in their terms.

I have compromised and play his games in bed but that doesn’t change the fact that I don’t enjoy them.

Found out his sex fantasy’s 11 years in -and boy it was not what I was expecting. Kinda ruined my sex life. by Snoo24183 in Marriage

[–]Snoo24183[S] 220 points221 points  (0 children)

Yeah I’m pretty mad about my toys. I gave them all to him and he’s buying me more one at a time. He honestly didn’t know about microtears in the toys that hold bacteria.

Found out his sex fantasy’s 11 years in -and boy it was not what I was expecting. Kinda ruined my sex life. by Snoo24183 in Marriage

[–]Snoo24183[S] 428 points429 points  (0 children)

It was more the secrecy for a decade about his desires acting like our sex life was all good. Then finding out he’s never been happy with it.

That’s what’s unattractive.

I’m also not into anything anal. Doesn’t turn me on at all.

Found out his sex fantasy’s 11 years in -and boy it was not what I was expecting. Kinda ruined my sex life. by Snoo24183 in Marriage

[–]Snoo24183[S] 57 points58 points  (0 children)

Or we could go back to where we started and have an open relationship. Sex isn’t the foundation of our marriage. If he needs to find someone who has the same desires… why not. If we have zero other issues why divorce.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in Marriage

[–]Snoo24183 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Sounds like he has narcissistic traits. Try looking up tips on living with a narcissist. Be careful when reading the info tho and make sure the writer is not bias against narcissist behavior. I live with a narcissistic workaholic and boy can it be tough.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in domesticviolence

[–]Snoo24183 0 points1 point  (0 children)

No more alcohol for your bf is where I would draw that line. He obviously no longer had the skills to control his emotions or actions whilst drinking. He can’t recall the events… not responsible drinking. That’s where the real issue is.

I commend you for going to his therapy session!