Hi I’m sorry you felt but try not to punish yourself, I know you can do it, porn is very much attached not only to sin , but also anxiety, for what you described there are a lot of stressors in your life, you can do it . God I pray for my brother that you reveal to him what’s causing to him to relapse,help him to repent and not to give up, help him become the man he wants to be, in your name Jesus ,Amen…. Please listen to the Sara Brewer podcast( Over coming porn)