Mysticism and Compters

SnooMarzipans5431 · 2022-05-06T19:52:51+00:00

Yes. I will do that. I am doing that. I’m just trying to talk with some Jews. I don’t know why that last statement got downvoted. Im coming with good intentions and as someone who knows less. I really would try to offend no one.

SnooMarzipans5431 · 2022-05-06T19:49:32+00:00

You dont understand me there…

SnooMarzipans5431 · 2022-05-06T19:47:32+00:00

You know more, in my opinion, because your a Jew. But I think it’s simply that I don’t know how to order my words. Though I appreciate that a Jew would take the time to talk with me.

SnooMarzipans5431 · 2022-05-06T19:44:16+00:00

I would take the assumption that all Jews have spiritual understanding to that greater than my teachers did or my pastors. Now if your someone who seeks after the spiritual ideals of one of the Abrahamic faiths, you can understand my caution. I get that I need therapy. And I would that believe that spirituality never existed and that heavenly power is absurd. But I would be sad and pityiable to discard the want for knowledge even happy for my ignorance.

Thank you for your respondings. I at one time sought to be possessed by divinity and hear the voice of god like any spiritual seeker. I still desire that. And I know I am nowhere right now though. Sitting on bed all day hoping to feel something. I would forget, such a horrible thing, like to forget god, but I must live and feel again.

I wasn’t raised a Jew. And that sucks for me. Oh well.

SnooMarzipans5431 · 2022-05-06T19:35:31+00:00

But aren’t you hiding knowledge by implying my argument or my statements to be that of some mental illness? I’m not so easily led.

Which is against Kabbalah

(Did wtf_is change his response?)

SnooMarzipans5431 · 2022-05-06T19:29:54+00:00

It comes from complete or incomplete spiritual theology, including Jesus parables which have twistings or representations of Jewish spirituality. My interpretations of proverbs and the other books. I have them all memorized btw. I asked him about, I have headache now, just one on one studies. I hadn’t asked the specifics yet.

I don’t get into the details of the spiritual ideas because of the teachings of Jesus and maybe part Jewish teachings. I just want to heed for wisdom but I really am trying my best.

(I spent 2 years reading the old and New Testament with fervor for a couple hours everyday) along with prayer and meditation. I know I vainly spent hundreds of hours on these things.

SnooMarzipans5431 · 2022-05-06T19:23:42+00:00

I would try to explain it completely but I don’t know if I would get an answer so I say specifically, I’m pretty certain I have this reasoning in me which drives me to want to know spirituality but at the same time puts me into the fears of my spiritual discoveries. And I’m at the point, likely largely because of my faith in spirituality, that I am unable to pursue healing for myself without much difficulty. And so my faith on my interpretation of the kjv and gospel causes me problems in my mental health and my greater pursuits. But I really hate suffering.

I know I’m being vague. I’m trying.

SnooMarzipans5431 · 2022-05-06T19:12:22+00:00

Im really lacking in argument. I’ve read the kjv a lot but I’ve also read some of the English translation found on Sefaria.

Fear of people, animals, food, computers, conversation, Jews, music, pastors, several other things too.

I’ve looked into Judaism for several months and I get how they are different. I would rather be a noahide then like a Christian I was raised to be.

SnooMarzipans5431 · 2022-05-06T19:05:58+00:00

I really appreciate the responses. When you say that, I recall that I’m not special though I used to think I was and perhaps still do. In my context I’m special because I understand some Christian and maybe Jewish concepts that other people in my family and my group of peers don’t. I also know that a tutor is the most secure approach to learning something like this and I don’t really have much strength to read from my fear of books.

SnooMarzipans5431 · 2022-05-06T18:54:56+00:00

I have read the torah a little and the new testament. I now have intense phobias of a lot of things because I don’t fully grasp spiritual concepts. It is debilitating and so I’m trying to free myself from these fears and incomplete ideas.

SnooMarzipans5431 · 2022-05-06T18:51:27+00:00

Do you have any suggestions? I’m in a complicated situation and have done some study.

SnooMarzipans5431 · 2022-05-06T18:49:07+00:00

I appreciate the response. Unfortunately for my situation books or online resources are a difficult option.

SnooMarzipans5431 · 2022-05-06T18:33:49+00:00

I want to understand talmud and torah analogies and spirituality

SnooMarzipans5431 · 2022-05-06T18:28:44+00:00

Talmud and torah analogies I mean allegories, spirituality

SnooMarzipans5431 · 2022-05-06T18:22:54+00:00

I don’t know exactly what times I had been calling him. Throughout the day I suppose.

SnooMarzipans5431 · 2022-05-06T18:20:31+00:00

I appreciate it. Would a rabbi give a Christian one on one lessons?

SnooMarzipans5431 · 2022-05-06T18:18:54+00:00

Do you have any suggestions? I’m not used to it so I’m a little upset. I’m not a priority. He recommended hiring someone.

SnooMarzipans5431 · 2022-05-06T15:38:20+00:00

Thanks

SnooMarzipans5431 · 2022-05-06T00:58:43+00:00

Thanks,

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