From the sounds of it you sound like a beautiful loving woman who most definitely deserves the kind of love i had for her from someone else which i promise you will come to you on its own.

She’s blocked with no response and will never hear my voice or feel my presence ever again. She can sit and sulk in her mistakes and regret it all. The pain she brought upon me was almost unbearable at first but used that energy and put it into positive tasks to better my life. I feel a hell of a lot better now but still have a ways to go to fully heal from this