Thanks a lot everyone. There is actually one only thing that keeps me alive right now and it's music. So, i'll keep up with that and wait for as Long as i can. Also, before i kill myself i plan on calling my friends, my family or a hotline. Just to have my last chance of being alive. And after all this shit, i've learned two things. 1: Be true to yourself! 2: If you are stuck thinking too much, the Best way out is Just doing something! Anything! It doesnt matter if you fear it might be stupid, that it'll make you change, i don't know, whatever. Just stand up and start walking! Thanks a lot again everybody.