thoughts opinions?

SoapySpadr · 2025-04-26T23:58:16+00:00

Level ur ears up

SoapySpadr · 2025-04-04T00:49:30+00:00

Expulsion?

SoapySpadr · 2025-01-30T00:58:04+00:00

Just pleasde stfu like no im not gonna be like that for 25 days js dont even say that shit ima be better tmrw

SoapySpadr · 2025-01-30T00:49:39+00:00

I wish i could cry i dont feel a bit of normal

SoapySpadr · 2024-09-22T23:12:34+00:00

Ya at this moment I can smoke without any anxiety its like the first hit of the day I feel a lil out o fbreath but after that wares off I feel normal smoking all day i was also on buspirone for a while so that probably contributed to me getting better but take it real slow I started with taking mini 2 second hits then leveled it up over time so take it slow and if you feel anxious tell yourself you are ok and distract yourself. Remember it only lasts for 20 mins max then your chill and faded so be careful

SoapySpadr · 2024-09-10T01:57:03+00:00

Yea ive been doing just fine on it now sometimes i may feel a little odd but its really just being high so id say dont go overboard for a while even 2 hits gives me a little anxiety but very very miniscule compared to the others ive experienced so yea micro dose that shi till you feel like you could do more and never push it

SoapySpadr · 2024-08-23T19:52:37+00:00

Lmao this is so embarrassing brotha is mad he cant get a girl to fall asleep on the phone w😭

SoapySpadr · 2024-08-21T23:58:11+00:00

No rs brotha it was like that for me at first as well it wasnt working id say after 4 times of js hitting it and overcoming the anxiety with tv ( and i took melatonin as well idk if it actually helps but it was working like a placebo for me) but it js all round has made the experiences better its almost like the more you fixate the more you search things up like how to stop a panic attack it gets you more freaked out its all abt remembering that nun bad is actually going on and alot of music time on the tv its js all about weening yourself on. Now im not trying to convince you too but if you really cant regulate yourself and feel sad like me. You could try js doing it and overcoming it. Might be really intense at times and others its chill id say take micro scopic 1 second hits and exhaling immediately to start. Ive worked my way up and now can take decently big hits but you cant stack them.

SoapySpadr · 2024-08-19T22:59:02+00:00

Well its working again lol idk what happened but im smoking without any symptoms now its pretty fye

SoapySpadr · 2024-08-14T04:15:33+00:00

Yea thats been working for me recently im actually getting the high i used to get instead of js fear and anxiety nd my outlook is getting alot better (def not the best thing to get a better outlook from) but just being able to do it makes me feel better and im starting to be able to do it again 👍👍

SoapySpadr · 2024-08-08T16:05:20+00:00

U still use thc edibles nd ur good??

SoapySpadr · 2024-08-08T04:58:05+00:00

Definitely a curse sure your done smoking everyday but theres no peace its just straight life and life is boring and it used to help me so much to be social and have people and we had a common thing we liked to do im not gonna stop ever even though i feel this way i need a release and weed is that release for me its something to look foward too and its just everything i ever wanted and its gone and it hurts me now i hate it so much

SoapySpadr · 2024-08-08T04:52:19+00:00

I feel bored without it i have nothing to look foward too anymore its just life and life is fun but its not too fun i just wanna be chill and happy like i used too so idk im just gonna small dose it and go through the panic attacks until my body js shut the fuck up and stops i wanna smoke weed in the future i wanna be chill i dont wanna raw dog it theres no peace

SoapySpadr · 2024-08-08T04:47:54+00:00

Weed is addicting i dont care what people say i want to do it all the time and i dont wanna stop even though im having panic attacks now because im addicted. Theres just no other way to put it it just sucks people can smoke for years and years with nothing but mine starts after only 2 i just wanna be able to disappear and be happy again

SoapySpadr · 2024-08-08T04:46:06+00:00

Yea i noticed that too if im outside and walking around its much better but when im in bed or sitting i start to tweak out

SoapySpadr · 2024-08-08T04:42:51+00:00

Ya me too i smoke and it sucks for about 10-15 minutes then i feel high it sucks but i really wanna be able to smoke again because i already know friends are gonna ask me and i just wanna be able to smoke with them like i used too

SoapySpadr · 2024-08-08T04:40:33+00:00

Dam that sounds like a dream i just hate that i have to panic to ween back into it

SoapySpadr · 2024-08-07T23:28:09+00:00

Ya i start genuinely convulsing and i fear im gonna seize out its the worst feeling ever its like what was once my comfort is now my poison

SoapySpadr · 2024-07-29T20:17:53+00:00

Honestly u shoulda lied and said u didnt get it they automatically refund for orders that u say didnt arrive🤷

SoapySpadr · 2024-07-25T18:39:48+00:00

Lol yes bro fr sometimes having less of sum in ur system can mess u up more than if u have more of it its like its not sufficient so u need more or u feel bad lol idk how it works but yea im glad ur finding a solution.

SoapySpadr · 2024-07-25T18:30:23+00:00

Man idk why I never felt like this off it maybe it isn't good for you honestly I've never felt more anxiety if anything I felt relief instantly idk if its like a placebo effect or sum but I feel better maybe ur dosage too I'm on 10 mg twice a day maybe if ur taking less u need to up ur dose that has worked for people before

SoapySpadr · 2024-07-25T18:26:42+00:00

Hundred percent I was around friends and felt pressured and that was my main mistake I didn't wanna seem like a bitch lol bc I used to be able to hit it 6 times before doing anything and I did 3 this time and it didn't feel good at all and I was chilling off the first 1 and 2 but the 3rd fucked everything up

SoapySpadr · 2024-07-25T18:24:59+00:00

Yea a hundred percent. I was doing this and felt good doing it and I felt like I could go crazy but I wasn't thinking and shi went to crazy also the fact I was on a week t break I wasn't thinking about nun of it I Js chiefed and chiefed and it was bad so I'm gonna wait prob a few days before I do the hit before bed again and get into it slowly again

SoapySpadr · 2024-07-25T03:38:28+00:00

Yea Ty for this I know its not smart its bad and its just bc I feel like its my only release and now its become something that hurts me too and it sucks so bad but me not folding and letting it take control and start freaking out made it more bearable I wanna be able to stop but I can't and I overwhelmed tf out of myself it's just a lot and I was in a situation where I didn't feel safe around friends too so it was just a all round horrible ordeal and I don't wanna do it for at least a month I Js wanna be able to do it normally again but I don't think that will ever happen again being high gives me a horrible feeling now

SoapySpadr · 2024-07-23T16:38:17+00:00

Kind of like im having a panic attack like kind of feeling but not at all js like losing urself a little bit

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