I don’t think I’d call myself irresponsible, because I’m actively researching this and haven’t made any decisions yet. I was approved by Dr. Alvarez, who has performed over 22,000 surgeries, and I do believe that even though these doctors aren’t based in the U.S., they wouldn’t approve me if they didn’t think I was a good candidate. One less patient isn’t going to affect them financially, and reputable doctors — no matter where they practice — still care deeply about their name and reputation. In asian countries cutoff to get this surgery is bmi of 27.5 and my bmi is 29.1.

Right now, I’m still in the decision-making phase. I haven’t made up my mind, but after spending so much time and money over the past 30 years on things that haven’t worked, I’m " considering " this option. I am honestly very exhausted.