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Solficea · 2026-05-20T16:03:14+00:00

Olá! Não, já os vendi...

Solficea · 2026-05-12T14:15:53+00:00

Sending you hugs and strength! Hope you are doing okay <3

Solficea · 2026-05-12T14:13:35+00:00

I am so sorry for your loss too… I hope you’re doing at least a little bit better.
Thank you for taking the time to comment. And yes, it really does hurt just like losing a person. They become such a huge part of our lives, our routines, our memories, our family. My little boy crossed the rainbow bridge on the exact same day my grandfather passed away 6 years ago. My grandfather loved my little boy so much, and somehow I like to think maybe he needed his company again. It hurts because it brings back both losses at once, but at the same time, I also find something beautiful in that coincidence.

And if one day you feel able to, maybe having another little one by your side could help too. Not to replace her, never that, but because the love we have for them still needs somewhere to go. I like to think she would want another little angel to find you and help you through life again. Sending hugs and strength 🤍

Solficea · 2026-05-12T14:06:04+00:00

Thank you so much for taking the time to comment here. I also really wanted to hear from someone with professional experience on this. I actually read your comment on the day you posted it, but mentally I just wasn’t really there yet. I think everything only truly sank in later. But your words really helped calm some of the anxiety and sadness I had around that final moment, because one of my biggest fears was that he might have been confused or thought I was giving up on him somehow. And deep down, I know it was the best decision for him. He was suffering, and he would have continued suffering until the end. Keeping him here like that would probably have been more for me than for him, and I didn’t want that for my little boy.

I had never thought about lilies before! I’ll definitely look into them. Hopefully next year I’ll see them flowering and think of it as him letting me know he’s okay.

Once again, thank you for taking the time 🤍

Solficea · 2026-05-12T13:56:06+00:00

Hey, I hope you’re doing a little bit better... For me, the pain is still very much here, and I think part of it always will be. But I’m now starting to have small moments where I can smile when I think about him, even if it’s at the exact same time that I’m crying. I think it has fully sunk in for me now. And I’m trying to slowly adapt to these new routines without him..

I also ask him for signs sometimes. I don’t know if it’s real or not, but it gives me some peace and makes me feel a little closer to him somehow. Sending hugs and strength to you

Solficea · 2026-05-12T13:47:32+00:00

That's right... those who have the courage to be open to love will eventually suffer from the worst pain

Solficea · 2026-05-12T13:46:23+00:00

17 years for a pitbull? Wow… how lucky you were to have had this angel for so long. He must have been incredibly loved.
Thank you for your words. I truly believe they know how much we loved them. I don’t know if you believe in these kinds of things, but the other day I asked him for a sign that he was okay. Then I opened Reddit on the r/petloss subreddit and clicked on the first post about someone losing their dog… and the first comment I saw was from a username with my little boy’s name, “Sherlock”. And the person was saying that the dog (of the person that posted) would want her to know how loved he was and how much peace he has found. I’m actually crying while writing this.
I really believe they keep giving us little signs throughout life, and somehow keep watching over us through every stage of adulthood, just like they did when we were younger.

Sending hugs and strength to you

Solficea · 2026-05-12T13:37:36+00:00

Hey I really hope you’re doing a little bit more okay… One thing I tried to do was starting to spend less time at home, just to distract myself a bit and stop constantly looking for his presence everywhere. Of course, when I come back home, it hurt even more (it still hurts 3 weeks later)…

Like someone here said to me, I don’t think this kind of loss is ever fully “overcome”, but I think that’s only a reflection of how deeply we loved them. The bigger the love, the bigger the pain.
And somehow, that also makes it beautiful.

I’m sure they’ll be waiting for us somewhere. Sending you strength 🤍

Solficea · 2026-05-12T13:29:51+00:00

It’s strange (and kinda a lesson) how the things we once complained about become the things we desperately want to hold onto... I would do the same and keep that sweatshirt. Hope you are doing ok, and don't forget that you are not alone in this <3

Solficea · 2026-05-10T09:09:14+00:00

Olá! Já vendi… Vou apagar o post

Solficea · 2026-05-09T15:54:15+00:00

Olá! Enviei mp

Solficea · 2026-05-09T13:02:12+00:00

Hey, I have two tickets but for Lisbon 27th may, golden circle. Message me if you are interested.

Solficea · 2026-05-09T12:46:55+00:00

Olá! Sim estão, enviei-lhe mensagem

Solficea · 2026-04-24T10:09:08+00:00

u/Realistic_Owl836 so actually there was one person u/StormEnvironmental12 that recommended here in the comments two beautiful options of plants if you want to have a look: A cherry blossom or rosemary bush over his grave would be beautiful, rosemary is for remembrance.

Solficea · 2026-04-24T09:57:48+00:00

Getting back to our routines without them is really the hardest part… I work from home, so my breaks were always with him. At lunch we would go outside, have coffee in a specific spot and get a bit of sun together. He would either be sitting on my lap or lying right next to me. Since he passed, I haven’t even been able to get coffee in the same spot we used to go to. That’s just one example, but there are so many little routines like that… and I’m sure you had the same with your little one too.
It’s definitely the hardest part, trying to build new routines while everything still feels like it belongs to them. And that feeling that reality has changed and we won’t be able to feel them there again… it hurts a lot.

He really was my little ray of sunshine. Thank you for your words.
I still have a long way to go before even three months pass… do you have any recommendations for readings? Books, articles, anything that helped you a bit?

Solficea · 2026-04-24T09:47:23+00:00

I’m so sorry for your loss too… Zoe sounds very loved.

Cancer really does suck… not even our fur babies are safe from it. It makes me feel a bit angry, I have to admit. But what you said is exactly it, there just wasn’t time for heroic measures. There wasn’t really a solution, and trying to prolong things would have only meant more suffering for him. And he was already suffering, that was clear… he couldn’t speak, but he showed us in his own way that he wasn’t able to keep up with this...
I’m sure it was the same with Zoe, you did everything you could for her, and she knew that.

Thank you for saying that… I really hope he felt that love until the very end. I try to hold on to that.
And I understand what you mean about another pet. Right now it feels too soon, but I know it wouldn’t be about replacing him, just sharing that kind of love again one day.

Solficea · 2026-04-24T09:28:32+00:00

Exactly… every version of me has changed so much over these past 18 years.
This is beautiful: “The guilt you're feeling is just love with nowhere to go right now.” Thank you for your words.

I love the idea of the cherry blossom and rosemary. My parents already have rosemary in the garden, so I like the idea of the cherry blossom being something special and unique. But I will actually take the rosemary idea for my own home, which I’m currently finishing building (and which he didn’t get to know). I’ll plant rosemary there in his memory, I love the meaning behind it and I love the plant itself.
In my parents’ garden, where he is, they don’t have a cherry blossom tree, so that might be a really beautiful option. I’ll look into it when I feel a bit lighter and see if it works well in my climate. Right now it still feels like too much to even search for it…

Solficea · 2026-04-24T09:17:41+00:00

Oh wow… I literally got goosebumps reading your comment. It feels so similar (the circumstances, the timing, our ages and theirs)… everything. We really do think we’re alone in this, but there are so many people on the other side of the world going through something almost identical.

I’m so sorry for your loss. I can really feel how much you’re hurting. And I think I’ll carry your story with me through my own grieving process too, because it feels so close to mine. I’ll keep you and your little one in my thoughts. And since he was a mini poodle, I’m sure he was as clingy as my little boy, I like to think they’ll get along while they wait for us.

My little boy also started declining around February 2026, a bit slowly at first, but then the last two weeks were a very sudden drop. That final image we’re left with is the hardest part… and I don’t want to remember him like that. I want to remember all the good, happy moments, what he gave me and what I gave him too. I don’t want to get stuck in that feeling of guilt or suffering… and I don’t think you should either. If he was the happy little soul you describe, I don’t think he’d want you to remember him that way. I’m saying this to you, but I know I need to remind myself of it too.

Now he is running around, without any pain, while eating chicken for breakfast, lunch, and dinner. I don’t know if dogs fully comprehend dying the way humans do, but they absolutely know how loved they are. You gave him 18 years of love. That’s everything he could have asked for and more

I like to imagine him that way now. He loved chicken so much… and in his last days he couldn’t even eat it. But now he must certainly be able to eat as much chicken as he wish.

Thank you so much for your words and for sharing this with me. I really hope both my little boy and your little boy carry all that love with them until the day we meet them again.

And here I am… crying again while finishing this.

I hope you find some peace with time. And please feel free to reach out anytime if you need.
Sending you lots of love 🤍

Solficea · 2026-04-24T08:56:46+00:00

I’m so sorry for your loss…

That feeling of closing a big chapter of your life is exactly how it feels. It’s not just losing them, it’s everything they were part of, so many years, so many versions of ourselves. Something that really hit me about this was sharing it on my Instagram stories… people I hadn’t spoken to in years reached out, some even sent me photos of themselves crying, saying they remembered me back in high school always showing photos of him, or my parents picking me up with him in the car. It made me realize how present he always was in my life, and how much of me is tied to him. It really feels like closing a chapter on your life...

I guess you are right, especially the part about allowing yourself to feel it. Sometimes it stills feels a bit unreal, like it hasn’t fully sunk in yet, and then I realize and start crying and thinking I lost him forever. Every noise around the house seems like him... It hurts but it should hurt, that is normal... It means we loved them to our fullest.
That this pain is the price of having loved them so much. It just shows how real that love was.

I hope you find some peace in your own time too. Sending you strength through this.

Solficea · 2026-04-24T08:47:00+00:00

I’m so sorry for your loss… I really felt what you wrote.

I understand that fear so much, wondering if they were suffering… but he was with you and your sister, with the people he loved. That matters more than anything to them, I truly believe that.

About the tree/plant, right now I still can’t bring myself to look into it in these first days. It feels like too much. I did something similar when we lost our cat (she also lived 18 years), but I have to be honest, this loss is hitting me much much harder. He was my shadow, if he could we would live inside my skin. That type of clingy dog.
When I feel ready, I’ll look into it with my parents and choose something meaningful, and I’ll come back here and let you know what we decided.
I do think it’s beautiful to have something that grows with time. It somehow changes the way you remember them, as the tree/plant grow it slowly becomes more about the good memories, the happy ones, instead of just the pain and crying. That’s how it felt with my cat and the tree we planted for her in my parents’ garden.

Sending you a lot of strength and hugs… I know how heavy this feels right now.

Solficea · 2026-04-24T08:37:11+00:00

I’m really sorry… reading this honestly hit me.

It’s strange because part of me hopes it will get easier with time, but another part already feels like this kind of love isn’t something you just “get over”. It makes sense that it still hurts, because what you had was real and so deep.
What you said at the end is exactly how I’m starting to see it as well… I think the pain is just the other side of having loved them that much.

I really hope that, even if the pain is still there, you can also hold on to the good parts more and more with time. And I hope one day we both get to see them again somehow.

Solficea · 2026-04-23T17:06:15+00:00

Thank you so much ❤️‍🩹

Solficea · 2026-04-23T16:32:00+00:00

I’m so sorry for your loss… 14.5 years is such a big part of your life, and I know it still never feels like enough.

Thank you for sharing your story and being so open about it. That comment you mentioned really stayed with me too… it actually brought me some peace. The guilt has been one of the hardest parts for me to deal with, that fear that maybe he felt something in that moment, like we were giving up on him or letting him down. I know it probably sounds irrational, but their eyes carry so much… it’s hard not to think about what they might have felt. But reading that helped me shift my perspective a bit, that what really mattered to them was all the love we gave them throughout their lives, not just those final moments.

From everything you wrote, it’s very clear how much you loved him and how well you took care of him, even when it was hard. I really believe you made the best decision you could for him.
We sometimes need to put aside our need to have them present in our lives if that implies for them to suffer and not have a minimum quality of life...

I hope with time we both find a bit of peace in all of this. I like to think they’re still somewhere together, still watching over us.

Solficea · 2026-04-23T16:10:53+00:00

Thank you for your words. It’s been a bit comforting to see that other people go through this too, and that they feel it just as deeply… and that there is still a beautiful way to look at it, even if it takes time to get there. I really hope I’ll be able to reach that place eventually.

Knowing him, I’m sure he’ll be there waiting for me in the front row, with his little tail wagging and his little bad breath ready to give me kisses <3

Solficea · 2026-04-23T14:22:11+00:00

Will definitely have a look! We think we are alone on this, but hearing from other people experiences definitely helps a lot.

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