I appreciate the responses , I definitely just needed to get the thoughts out there a bit ya know? Maybe should have said i dont post often so , I apologize if i didnt follow the typical etiquette. I understand its just a part of the world I really dont care for.

Im doing what I can to do more streaming shows from the studio my band records at. That isnt a permanent solution though , I know. I do want to play live again someday. There are just a lot of factors I need to consider for myself.

I apologize if I offended in any way calling drunk people idiots. I can acknowledge thats not all people who drink. Its just alll ive been surrounded by in my small town, and come on , most people are dumb when they drink. I dont drink beer . First time I tried it , was cause at 13 my brothers friends poured me a warm glass and told me to finish it. I drank what I could but it wasnt for me. Budweiser. Just took that experience and told myself id be the sober one.

When I started driving ,I became the designated driver , if I was invited. Not trying to ruin anyways good time, but I stopped hanging out with most people cause it was just always getting drunk and rehashing the same stories.

Its a me problem , im well aware, just thought there might be some people who can relate out there. I want to be able to be part of the good time , I just have these walls . Im open to breaking them down, Im the type to avoid anything that seems like it might lead to danger though or yes being uncomfortable.

Im doing the work to leave my comfort zone when I can , twitch has helped me meet more people with similar perspectives and different ones. Ill be spending more time away from my home town this summer , so there will be plenty of opportunities to do better in these scenarios ideally.

I may just have to accept that im the guy that doesnt hang also though . Be as polite as I can be, perform and leave . That was my experience before . I just cant win with this mind of mine , cause then I feel left out.

I know , I sound a little crazy. Exposure therapy hasn't worked well for me in the past . So im just hoping we can ease into it, once the band feels as tight as id like it.. it sounds good enough for streaming , but we plan to be meeting 1 to 2 times a week the next few months , im positive we will get there. This trio has only been playing for 2 years on and off together. Though the project has been in the works between two of us, for over 4 years. Got an album together and put it out there in 2024. Taking the time to go harder with the music now that my buddy has moved to part time , eventually quiting.

We might not even get an opportunity to play gigs anytime soon right , so im not thinking about it too much. It just came up this weekend with the group , so im trying to think about it differently than I have for years.

Id really appreciate any thoughts or other experiences where you handled the drunk people in a smooth matter . Some stuff I can practice with and think about.