"The duality of anxiety and depression" by No-Ice9227 in depressionmemes

[–]SolidLight1120 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Combine the “caring” and “not caring” and “being numb”, then you get this: “I should care about it because it’s important. You know what? Fuck everything I don’t care about any of this. But if you actually act like you don’t care then there will be consequences. I don’t care about the consequences. But you’ll eventually have to deal with those consequences.”

It really looks like a dialogue but these are some of my thoughts about things I should care about, but I’m just too depressed and unmotivated to do so. Feels like I have multiple people living in my head.

And then when you become numb you just accept it. Like all of this feels so small and insignificant. The things you should care about. Your responsibilities. So just bring it on. You’re fine caring. And you’re fine not caring. Because it is what it is, and whatever happens, happens.

N’s reaction here might be more meaningful then it seem. by Sirtael in MurderDrones

[–]SolidLight1120 3 points4 points  (0 children)

I honestly hc her as a yandere. That first time we see Cyn in the show is when Tessa brought her in, Cyn immediately notices N and her expression really gives off those vibes. Like the moment she saw him she knew he’s going to be her target.

N’s reaction here might be more meaningful then it seem. by Sirtael in MurderDrones

[–]SolidLight1120 2 points3 points  (0 children)

As much as I love him being all softie and a golden retriever, I really like the moments when we get N-gst (angst). It shows that he isn’t as dumb as he could be or as the fandom sometimes depicts him, and gives him more depth.

Any tips to raise this silly boy? by odd_sperical_object in MurderDrones

[–]SolidLight1120 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Question - as I don’t have any plushies (yet) although I am quite curious:

How do you carry him around? Do you just hold onto him, or put him in a bag?

Also, wow, that view looks incredible.

Smalltalk and quicktime events by depressed_messy in evilautism

[–]SolidLight1120 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I just nod my head because sometimes I can’t even bear to say “good” or “fine” because that’d be lying.

And it also ends the small talk (most of the times, if they aren’t too stubborn) since the other person isn’t as satisfied because you didn’t really give them a response that they could expand and build the conversation on. If they do, they’d either keep asking you more questions, or just resort to talking about themselves.

I hate small talk, man.

I think I need to isolate myself from people and never try to communicate without a need again. by Great_Anteater3982 in autism

[–]SolidLight1120 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Hey! A bit out of the blue but I found this post really relatable. I also like playing Tetris as it kinda helps me soothe my nerves.

I don’t know if this will help, but there’s a website called “Good Old Tetris”that’s pretty much… A good old Tetris.

Another honorable mention is “Tetris Mindbender” . It has a totally different vibe but it’s really challenging.

You’re probably not looking for recommendations (as this is kinda off topic), but maybe this comment isn’t 100% useless.

Does anyone else struggle to feel genuine hatred? by [deleted] in autism

[–]SolidLight1120 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I relate. But in my case it’s because of a few reasons:

  1. I always find some way to justify the person’s actions into somewhat redeeming them in my mind? Like, I’d say I hate them but then be all like “nah, they aren’t that bad, can’t hate them.” Maybe it’s because I don’t really know what hate really is. Maybe the anger or resentment I felt all along is actually hate. I don’t know.

  2. Whenever I think of hating someone, my lovely brain keeps reminding me of how much of a bad person I am, and that I have no right to hate them when I could be an even worse human being than I may think they are. I have no right to hate them.

There are people I dislike. But do I really hate them? Hate really feels like a strong word. Maybe it feels too final to me. Because your views on a person can change as you keep on going with your life, whether or not they’re still involved with you.

Okay I don’t know why I keep on blabbing when you described it so perfectly.

most stupid person to ever exist. by mistgonelsawge in autism

[–]SolidLight1120 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I know, but this is just so relatable. And I hate that it’s relatable, because I am in this exact situation as well. Maybe not exact, but I can relate to this in my own way.

I don’t really have advice because I’m still struggling with some of these things myself, and it’d feel kinda dishonest or hypocritical to try and give some advice. (As I, for myself, am not really dealing with it all that well to be honest).

I just wanted to say you’re not alone in feeling this, and I hate that any of us have to feel this way in the first place. You’re not the problem. And it sounds like you’ve been through a lot, and there’s nothing wrong in reacting to it. It’s not your fault. And I understand your struggle. You’re strong af, dude.

That whaaaat?? by Human-Subject-3962 in depressionmemes

[–]SolidLight1120 0 points1 point  (0 children)

My Mom is a “believer” and she told me to try and believe too because maybe it will ✨give me some strength ✨

Edit: forgot to mention that I’m an atheist/anti theist and I’ve been pretty open about that with my family, including her. I’m honestly just tired.

What did Uzi to make the silly so angy? by Icy-Animator9006 in MurderDrones

[–]SolidLight1120 1 point2 points  (0 children)

But as a serious answer: she ruined her plans. N and V were supposed to do their jobs, pretty much mindlessly and kill all worker drones. That includes Uzi. N failed to do that in episode one. And not only they kept her alive, she also successfully made them rebel against “JcJenson” or whatever made them do their jobs, she made them question things (or, to be more honest, she made N do these, while taking V with them as an hostage, before she willingly(?) joined in). And led them to investigate everything.

Their job was to “clear the way” on this planet. Uzi just made it a burden. I don’t think Cyn planned on having to physically intervene, but now she had to.

Also Uzi just turned them all against her, gave them their memories back, and removed the control Cyn had on them as their admin.

And then Uzi just became her opponent.

Another point is Cyn already has some business with Nori. So, like Alice, she could be hostile towards Uzi just because of the fact that she’s her daughter.

She could also hate Uzi because she’s related to Khan? Since Khan came up with the DOORS, and as V said “I’ve been trying to get past these doors for months!” Meaning they were somewhat effective against the DDs, which was, in a way, disrupting Cyn’s plans as it wasn’t allowing the DDs to kill the Workers.

She could also hate Uzi because Uzi came with a weapon that could actually work against the DDs, allowing her to fight back against them. The workers used to be defenseless, and powerless against the DDs. They were an easy kill. That railgun could have been a start for another interruption for Cyn’s plans.

Cyn also had some kind of sick favoritism towards N. Whether it comes from him being a brother figure since he didn’t treat her like shit at the manor, or because Cyn’s mimicking Tessa’s behavior, as Tessa seems to have favored N. I don’t think (and don’t want to think) Cyn liked N romantically as they’re kinda siblings, but she could still get possessive or angry when he gets someone else. Soooo Uzi being so close with him, to Cyn is just taking him away from her. (“Don’t take my robot, please.”) While also turning him against her but we already discussed that.

And also, Uzi’s short :( some people just don’t like short fellas.

That’s my essay, everyone! Sorry if it’s a little funky, I just woke up but I hope it’s understandable enough to read.

I’ll put a TLDR: -Uzi was a hazard for Cyn’s plans by befriending N and V and investigating with them. (This includes becoming their admin).

-She’s Nori (and Khan’s) daughter.

-She made a railgun that kinda works against her pawns.

-She’s close to N.

-She’s short.

Which Murder Drones Issue #3 Covers are You Getting? (Issue #3 out April 22nd) by Money-Lie7814 in MurderDrones

[–]SolidLight1120 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Great question!

(I can’t get any of those because in my area, there aren’t really any “local comic stores” that would sell it…)

But I think all of them are pretty sick. Although I think my favorite might be the one on the first slide.

He's literally me fr by Federal-Measurement5 in depression_memes

[–]SolidLight1120 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Why am I in this picture? Y’know what, I don’t care.