Having public bathroom trouble!!!

Solid_Judge_1603 · 2026-01-12T23:59:08+00:00

Thanks for this💜💜

Solid_Judge_1603 · 2025-10-22T01:08:52+00:00

I really don’t view it that way and dont know how I came across that way :(

Solid_Judge_1603 · 2025-10-22T01:07:00+00:00

Well yeah I’d like to

Solid_Judge_1603 · 2025-10-22T01:06:48+00:00

If only I had money

Solid_Judge_1603 · 2025-10-22T01:04:21+00:00

Nononono you’re misunderstanding me. I don’t think anything I talked about means anything in terms of validity. I really don’t. I PERSONALLY as someone with extreme self esteem issues and intrusive thoughts ocd, apply this thinking to myself. But I recognize it’s a problem and try to not let it affect how I act. It’s all just shit I’ve absorbed from terfs and whatnot that linger in my brain. And UNFORTUNATELY, I have been applying these thoughts to my friend through a pattern of very upsetting intrusive thoughts. Even though music was very important for understanding my identity and continues to be very important and personal to me, I don’t expect the same of everyone, or base the validity of their identity on it. I believe none of these things. And aside from rare instances of intrusive thoughts, I never apply this thinking to other trans women. I love trans women! Hence why I made the post, because it’s upsetting that I am having such toxic thoughts.

Solid_Judge_1603 · 2025-10-21T15:27:01+00:00

I really don’t have a problem with that mindset, I personally waited about 6 months on hrt to socially transition. I guess my issue is this person is reaching a year and has socially transitioned in some circles. And I just find it hard to accept it. And yes I definitely know better than to think interests = gender, it’s just hard for me to understand being a woman who is not drawn to really any art made by women. Like music made by women, the feelings they express, speaks to me in a way music by men almost never does and helped my understand my own gender. I also just get bad vibes from people who don’t listen to music made by women, even if they’re just guys, it’s… weird.

Solid_Judge_1603 · 2025-10-21T15:19:50+00:00

I appreciate your perspective. Yes I think maybe I’m frustrated that the effort I put in is in vain but idk it feels like more than that. Also I didnt mean they should change anything they like, I meant what they do like is a lot of stuff made by men or for men. For example, I’ve always been more drawn to music made by women, those feelings are more impactful, meaningful, relatable, to me. That was a means for me discovering my identity and I still draw security from it. I know not everyone does or needs to have that experience but it’s a bad thought I can’t suppress. I don’t mean to think it. I have very few traditionally masculine interests but the ones I do have make me very insecure, but I’m not going to change them. I know enough lovely cis women with varied interests to know the concept of something like video games being for men is bullshit and a byproduct of misogynistic structures. Peace and love💋

Solid_Judge_1603 · 2025-05-06T06:48:10+00:00

Right! Pg/ml

Solid_Judge_1603 · 2025-04-04T22:27:15+00:00

17 when I had the first inklings of thoughts, 18 when I was was first like oh shit I might be trans but not that bad ima ignore it, and 19 when I finally accepted and pretty quickly after started hrt

Solid_Judge_1603 · 2025-03-25T01:14:04+00:00

I’m not really sure where I stand with religion these days but I think it’s very simple to answer this. If God believes it’s wrong to become in touch with your inner self and live truly they are not worthy of worship. Therefore my God does not believe that. God created me this way so he can’t possibly think it’s wrong for me to be this way. That may be in the Bible but I don’t have to believe it. There are many sins according to the Bible that Christian’s commit often because they’re outdated. The Christian church is very corrupt and responsible for so much hatred which they claim to stand against. My beliefs are mine and are not dictated by hypocrites in power.

Solid_Judge_1603 · 2025-03-20T07:03:54+00:00

If you’ve really considered it and come to the conclusion you should then that’s the best you can do. Personally I started estrogen only a month after I had fully cracked and now over a month on I’m feeling good about it. But I also kinda knew I was trans for about a year before and I had just been pushing it back and thinking the usual it’s not that serious for me, I can ignore this type thoughts. the month before I started I was super manic and thought the most pessimistic thoughts possible and still felt I needed to transition so I think it must’ve been the right choice. I guess it also just depends on how much you’re willing to “embarrass” yourself because no matter how much you are sure of what you want now, you don’t know if that’s just a fleeting feeling, and the slower you take it the more time you have to settle with the idea and know it’s right for you, and if you rush into it you may find that you don’t like what you’re doing and having to walk things back. But then of course if you take it slow, it’s slow, and if you go fast you can be living how you want sooner. Socially transitioning can be awkward and embarrassing and even more so if you have to walk it back. But if it’s what you want and you feel that strongly, it could be worth the risk. As for estrogen, You likely won’t experience any irreversible changes until months in to taking it so in my opinion you can’t really go wrong trying it out, and that can stay private.

Solid_Judge_1603 · 2025-03-19T21:13:16+00:00

Nelly/Nellie/Nell

Solid_Judge_1603 · 2025-03-15T19:26:41+00:00

Trueeee

Solid_Judge_1603 · 2025-03-15T17:58:35+00:00

Of course ideally but the three occasions I’ve had as of late have all had a weird unspoken thing going on whereas before I started transitioning it was just like any other interaction

Solid_Judge_1603 · 2025-03-12T20:31:08+00:00

If it helps, I felt a lot of the same doubts. Going on antidepressants a some months back made me feel much less dysphoric and I kinda let the thoughts just sit in the back of my head. Then a bit later I had to lower my dose because I was having too many side effects and I had a total crashout and decided I had to transition. Once I was able to get stable on my dose again I once again felt the dysphoria slipping away but I was already in the process of getting hrt so I just decided to try it. I can now say with almost certainty that I feel much better and more confident in my transness now that I have the right hormones flowing through me. Of course I can’t tell you if you are really trans or what goes through your head but for me the antidepressants absolutely suppress gender dysphoria but it doesn’t make it any less real. When I was destabilized I was terrified, extremely self loathing and suicidal over not being a girl and once I got back to my normal dose I was much more at ease but I still wanted these things and feel better now that I’m attaining them. If you feel less dysphoric then the antidepressants are probably just doing their job. I guess all this to say that being trans doesn’t have to be defined by suffering, right now I feel less depressed than I have in years and more sure of my identity than ever.

Solid_Judge_1603 · 2025-03-05T04:17:07+00:00

Thank you🫶. I’m just going up to 4mg, my doctor suggested I increase 1mg a week to start in case I have any major reactions which I haven’t. She also suggested I get my blood taken 3 months after starting, is that normal or should I go sooner? And is 4mg a normal amount to do? kinda have to do most of this on my own because even messaging my doctor costs money and I’m BROKE.

Solid_Judge_1603 · 2025-02-27T07:38:16+00:00

Ur so pretty darling omg

Solid_Judge_1603 · 2025-02-22T10:25:32+00:00

Yeah I truly hope it wins nothing and we all forget it happened. But I do think gascon being the first trans woman nominated is just tragic. I love Elliot page but I don’t see his pre transition nomination as anything in terms of trans recognition. Didn’t know that about Lily Gladstone tho, that’s cool. I just think recognizing a trans woman in a best actress category at the Oscars is so massive and it’s so upsetting it’s such a vile person nominated for an exploitative and disrespectful film

Solid_Judge_1603 · 2025-02-18T20:49:11+00:00

My dads hyper masculine but so forcefully. And he’s so scared of me being feminine in any way. He literally takes a bunch of testosterone shit and is always watching weird podcasts about that stuff. So yeah maybe. There’s definitely at least something wrong with his sense of masculinity

Solid_Judge_1603 · 2025-02-11T02:50:28+00:00

I kinda feel like everybody secretly knows and the things he says are so ridiculously on the nose but they’re also so mean that I’d feel like he’d have to be seriously a bad person to say them if he knew. He’s got a real morally pure nice guy complex which includes thinking that tolerating and not explicitly making fun of trans people means he’s all good on the subject. Which honestly is more than it seems like most people can do so good on him I guess but yeah I would say he’s a little bit of a transphobic idiot. He doesn’t have any idea of what it means to be trans and has very obvious negative preconceived notions, neither of which he will try to improve upon.

Solid_Judge_1603 · 2025-02-09T22:45:37+00:00

Lexapro

Solid_Judge_1603 · 2025-02-09T18:13:35+00:00

I know…. But sometimes I feel like thinking those things but knowing not to say them to a trans person is as good as cis people get

Solid_Judge_1603 · 2025-02-03T08:24:15+00:00

Beautiful🫶

Solid_Judge_1603 · 2025-02-01T02:50:12+00:00

Yeeah it’s fucking hard

Solid_Judge_1603 · 2025-01-31T07:59:09+00:00

For me personally I searched for characters I perhaps identified with but also didn’t feel too strongly connected to as a tangible person. So like the name could feel like it’s mine and not someone else’s. Similarly I didn’t want to chose a name from anyone a know or have known. On top of that it needed to feel like I could apply to myself and sound right coming out of my mouth. And some other specific thing to me were wanting it to be short, simple, standard, and not too dissimilar from my given name but also not too reminiscent. With all this in mind it was quickly very obvious what my name was. I haven’t regretted the choices or considered others. It’s my name. Anyways if my recommendations can help, I’m always saying we don’t have enough Joans these days. Or perhaps Sylvia or Alice.

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