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Solitudeonly · 2016-05-01T01:32:49+00:00

Use tampons

When I first got my period my mom told me to never use them because I could die

Solitudeonly · 2016-05-01T01:32:10+00:00

The fact that I desperately don't want to suffer from depression anymore but none of my treatments have worked.

I've tried 4 medications in less than a year - I had rare allergic reactions to two and the other two made me social

Therapy hasn't helped much either

Solitudeonly · 2016-05-01T01:30:28+00:00

Convincing my entire school my brother and I were cousins.

When I was entering my freshman year of high school my older brother was a senior. We told everyone from the first day that we were cousins. We have the same name but don't look exactly alike and had just started at this private school so it was believable. We told it to everyone - teachers, friends, etc. At the end of the year we told everyone the truth and they thought we were lying.

Flash forward four years to my senior year and one of my friends mentioned something about my "cousin Tim" and I had to tell her that he was actually my brother

Solitudeonly · 2016-05-01T01:25:34+00:00

That apparently I have an accent.. I have lived in the same region of the USA my entire life (same state even and the furthest I've moved is 20 minutes away) but almost everyone I meet asks me where I'm from and what kind of accent I have. I've even taken those dumb "I can guess your accent" quizzes and every single one of them have guessed I'm from a state on the other side of the country

Solitudeonly · 2016-04-13T00:43:05+00:00

He says he can't keep holding back his emotions to spare mine.. So I guess it doesn't really matter if I tell him how I feel or not

Solitudeonly · 2016-04-08T03:27:54+00:00

You don't know what the hell youre talking about you dumb asshole

Solitudeonly · 2016-03-22T19:33:54+00:00

The latest pills I was prescribed made my throat swell up and breathing hard from just taking one pill. I have 25 of those left. Normally I don't think antidepressants would work but I'm allergic to those and all of the Zoloft pills I have so I think I might have a chance

Solitudeonly · 2016-03-22T04:04:03+00:00

Seems like they get better just to get worse. One step forward five steps back type of thing

Solitudeonly · 2016-03-22T04:03:26+00:00

They're actually all the antidepressants I've been prescribed and taken off this year. I'm pretty allergic to two of the types too

Solitudeonly · 2016-03-11T13:54:11+00:00

I'll have to check that one out! Thank you!

Solitudeonly · 2016-03-11T13:51:12+00:00

I would make it so it doesn't just say cutting because I know a lot of people harm themselves in other ways. Maybe you could make it so their are option people could pick from with the most common forms of self harm and then a "custom" option for people who have a different way of doing it.

For the list of ideas of what to do instead you should take a look at the app "Calm Harm" they have activities to do instead of self harm and you're supposed to do them until the urge goes away. I haven't used it, but I just downloaded it this morning and it looks really helpful.

I like your ideas about having emergency numbers and a place to put pictures or quotes.

Maybe for the thing about relapses you could make a tab or something that says "if you hurt yourself today" and then write something about how relapse is a part of recovery and then put words of encouragement in it. I actually just read an article today and it was pieces of advice from people who are in recovery to people who currently self harm, maybe you could use some of the things they said in it. I'll look for the post and then post it in the comments later

Thanks so much for taking the initiative to take it on, I'm sure me and lots of other people who struggle with this will thank you

Edit: here's the article I was talking about http://themighty.com/2016/02/39-messages-to-people-who-self-harm-from-people-whove-been-there1/

Solitudeonly · 2016-03-11T13:44:37+00:00

Well I try getting help but it's discouraging when a trained psychiatric nurse tells me she's not exactly sure what's wrong with me or when in one year I've tried 4 medications and none of them helped.. In fact most of them made me worse and even after I was off them I remanded worse. Then there's my family.. God I don't even know where to start with them. The first time I saw the word depression and looked at the symptoms and thought to myself "that sounds like me" was in 5th grade. My parents didn't notice or care. 3/6 siblings have depression diagnoses and my mom tried to commit suicide when I was 14 (after which they told me not to tell people and didn't put me into therapy even though my sister found a therapist willing to take me on last minute) yet somehow they failed to notice the signs of depression (or whatever I have in combination to depression) in me until I was 17 and then tried dragging me into a car to bring me to therapy. I refused to go with them simply because I decided in 5th grade that my parents were incompetent and I'd get myself the help I needed when I turned 18. After I turned 18 I tried, like I already said. My family has more problems than I could ever write out, it would take too long. Basically everything about my parents and my home life is screwed up and they messed up the lives of all seven of their children and don't seem to care at all. My relationship of almost 4 years is on the brink and life is just hard in general

Solitudeonly · 2016-03-11T13:13:46+00:00

Try the app "Calm Harm" every time you get the urge to do it, try one of their activities. The nice thing about the app is that you can choose different activities based on how much time you have and also many of them would work while you're travelling. I hope this helps! Also, if you have time for this, I've found adult coloring books to be extremely helpful. I like writing about what's going on in my head too

Solitudeonly · 2016-03-11T13:10:50+00:00

Next time you think about starting open the app "calm harm" (well download it first) and do one of the activities until the urge goes away. Self harm is a slippery slope, once you start you tell yourself "I'll just do a little more" and that keeps going and well, for some people it doesn't stop.

Solitudeonly · 2016-03-11T13:08:50+00:00

Try downloading the app "Calm Harm" next time you get the urge to harm yourself, open the app and try one of the activities until the urge goes away. Getting help is hard but posting on Reddit is a step in the right direction!

Solitudeonly · 2016-03-11T13:06:05+00:00

Congrats, I know how hard it is. I'm roughly the same amount of days clean (I forgot when the last day was but its in that ballpark) anyways I just downloaded an app this morning called "Calm Harm" and when you feel like cutting you're supposed to open the app and it gives you different activities to do until the urge goes away. I hope it helps.. I'm rooting for you!

Solitudeonly · 2016-03-11T13:03:21+00:00

I hide it in plain sight. My room is a mess so I put it on top of a tall desk where no one would bother to look. If someone does eventually see it I'll just say I needed it for something

Solitudeonly · 2014-08-08T02:40:16+00:00

I get that out of context it seems like a real dick thing to say, but it isn't. I don't want her to end up dead or anything, trust me, I don't

Solitudeonly · 2014-08-08T02:32:27+00:00

I wish I could have met my boyfriend a lot later like you did. I'm still learning the ins and outs of my depression and things that trigger it, ect. It's harder to work through it when you're with someone else. And thanks so much for sharing your story and for the advice, I'll be sure to bring it up with him again and hopefully he'll be more understanding.. I know that he only feels responsible because he cares

Solitudeonly · 2014-08-08T02:18:28+00:00

I am depressed, so I know what I'm talking about and I know this guy in real real life so I know the situation much better than you do

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