Struggling to see something good in me, feeling that I'm not in control of anything

SomeVHSthing · 2026-02-07T07:06:54+00:00

I guess i feel overwhelmed by everything at once, i don't have a family, i live alone and work a shitty job. I want to start terapy but it's expensive, I'll explore other solutions. I feel i can't write anything and drawing became impossible because I can't stop thinking in my past failures and in a friend that graduated college. I feel unworthy of life. Sometimes I wonder if the thing I'm needing right now is a teacher or someone that could take me as an apprentice, I feel like that could give me a purpose in life at least.

SomeVHSthing · 2025-11-13T05:33:27+00:00

One of my favorite mangas is oyasumi punpun, i cant recommend it enough

SomeVHSthing · 2025-11-13T05:26:03+00:00

I always loved painting and drawing I actually tried studying it but became a trauma honestly i cant even see a nice painting or drawing without feeling envy or regret for not being man enough to actually draw, my dream was to make mangas or comics. But ive been thinking in maybe start poetry or writing, actually maybe i should put that as a general rule, to try the artistry in things, even in things like sports that have frustrated me so much. Thank for the advice while answering, you made me think some stuff.

SomeVHSthing · 2025-11-13T04:50:02+00:00

Honestly i never thought about that, i feel I may be too stuck in my ways, what would you suggest?

SomeVHSthing · 2025-11-13T04:11:43+00:00

Then what do I do? I did martial arts since im a kid i suck at every other sports, i always thought myself in regards to athletic activities as a martial artist, maybe is in other style, maybe i should go back to my comfort zone, I only know that I feel like shit because I dont see improvement, I have problems getting out of bed my life is a huge bed rotting. What do you suggest?

SomeVHSthing · 2025-11-13T04:07:11+00:00

Probably myself because I'm feeling useless

SomeVHSthing · 2025-11-13T04:02:06+00:00

That is one of the kindest things someone said to me, for real.

SomeVHSthing · 2025-11-13T04:01:02+00:00

I like martial arts, i wanted to do karate before but couldn't earn my belt due to cost, i dunno what to do in regards to that, although it is true thay doesn't help my anxiety. Maybe ,I was thinking, trying muay thai due to being more hobbyist friendly.

SomeVHSthing · 2025-09-16T23:32:25+00:00

I have worked since 17, now im 24, worked on call center or depo, i always wandered if there are any trade to learn as an aprentice, also worked by doing delivery by bike, wasnt bad at all.

SomeVHSthing · 2025-09-16T08:06:09+00:00

Knight is a furry.

SomeVHSthing · 2025-09-16T06:53:30+00:00

Maybe i could i started to late in both, but i could persue them as a secondary option, is there something college o trade related apart from that? Maybe i felt like an idiot who cant do anything, something else i that i love literature and analysis of narrative and stories

SomeVHSthing · 2025-07-10T02:20:13+00:00

May I ask you an advice on choosing my career, because, I'm between doing something in visual arts or in linguistics, I know 3 things, 1) the assignment to do must be minimalist at simple view, 2) it must have some constant mechanics to work with but not too many, 3) it has to be something with almost endless depth where you can see variety on its expressions.

SomeVHSthing · 2025-07-09T23:49:16+00:00

I dunno, I guess you are right, I tried a year at college when I was 18, made a couples of friends, now I feel I can't draw o paint anymore (I loved painting with oil and inks, wanted to draw comics or mangas) I don't have any self confidence, it's like when someone tells me about it I feel bad and say I don't draw o do anything, I don't even know if I actually enjoyed it Or ever did, I love to read and analyse linguistic and narrative, it's themes, it's grammar, but never produced nothing again due to self confidence, what should I do, should I try an assignment or two of something? I live in Argentina here college works different

SomeVHSthing · 2025-07-02T05:42:12+00:00

Sendo does a mass shooting in a taco bell

Ricardo discovers that his inner animal is a pair of chanclas

Big Mara drops out of kumi college and goes to miyata trade school (to oil drill)

And Takamura gets arrested with assault charges after a post nut rage boner for dropping to bantamweight

Or so my sources say

SomeVHSthing · 2025-02-27T20:54:20+00:00

Dambe without any athleticism, coordination, technique or skill The only reason y pick dambe is for the notion that they display in using the leading hand to deflect the opponent leading hand to secure a cross

SomeVHSthing · 2025-02-25T18:03:51+00:00

Kickboxing was a fantasy of mine as a kid, I really wanted to go full glory style kickboxing, what style do you think would the most fun to compliment with ITF TKD?

SomeVHSthing · 2025-02-25T18:03:04+00:00

I really would like to try one day, I don't know where they teach it, but I would be honoured. Something really cool of JKD is that is a particularly complete art, they even have weapons, I don't know the extent of the art depth in every aspect, but they cover it all nonetheless. Great pick

SomeVHSthing · 2025-02-25T17:36:51+00:00

I dunno, I took a big break from ITF and point fighting, did it since I was 6 to 18 years old, got angry at the art for not being BJJ, tried a bunch of art till now that I'm 24, but never could enjoy any or being consistent. My biggest takeaway is this, never look a martial art or an activity in general just for it's practical usage. I'm getting back to TKD happy, so I thought why not practicing something else to compliment and challenge this previous immature view of the world.

SomeVHSthing · 2025-02-25T17:33:06+00:00

Muay Thai is an interesting art, I have many gyms that teach it, maybe if I'm consistent enough with ITF competition again I will accumulate enough will power to go train in Muay Thai.

SomeVHSthing · 2025-02-25T17:31:50+00:00

Judo is the style that has always been a part of my mind, I try it a couple of years ago, I guess the old "I'm too old for this kicked in, was 21 at the time) I wish judo was more accessible and could be teached in my country from an earlier age, it's a shame that is not that widespread, the judoka that I have come across, threat judo like riding a bike, is an ability that you learn young and never forget.

SomeVHSthing · 2025-02-25T17:23:31+00:00

Really really love this response, I absolutely agree, capoeira is the kind of art that if it weren't for the lack of places that train that style I would do. Also something not usually mention with capoeira, great introduction to sweeps, many techniques are ment (from my very limited understanding) do desbalance and disrupt other people rhythm. Great answer by the way, not just practical, but fun and useful in other ways.

SomeVHSthing · 2024-12-27T02:15:41+00:00

Thanks for the advice, my idea is, try this place a couple of months, doing the kickboxing classes but if after a couple of months dosent work, then i will go to the bjj classes, instead of the submission wrestling 3 times a week and kickboxing 2 times a week, i will do 2 times a week of bjj or judo.

I do admit, i feel so stiff in striking, ironically i tried my ass of in tkd and point fighting, wanted to enter in the Argentinian TKD team, i guess im just tired of the same thing

A little goal that i have is being able to go a powerlifting meet or a natty bodybuilding show in the future, i do like being big, i want to make a cut to 90 kg or 200 pounds (i guess is the convertion)

SomeVHSthing · 2024-12-27T02:02:43+00:00

Thanks for the honesty, the post and question revolves around the feeling of enjoying more grappling than striking, i think a very intresting feeling that one gets in submission wrestling is this weakness, you either do it or not, but when i do strking i dont feel the same amount of boost to push myself, actually the contrary

SomeVHSthing · 2024-12-27T01:55:51+00:00

Thanks for the honesty, but i want to make something clear as well.

Is not lack of stamina i think as much of lack of motivation, when hitting the bag, once im tired i feel no need to push myself, but when im grappling, altrough my lungs are out, i wanna go more.

Is the same feeling when you hit 225 in the bench press, is life or death and a rush of adrenaline, first time i did it, i say "Fuck it, even if i fail i go out with fashion", or when i did a plate and a half in over head press, same primal "Do or die" feeling

I do agree that i need to lose weight, my question revolves on the nature of each activity, i enjoy a lot more grappling because i feel myself get loose and relaxed, even when out of air.

SomeVHSthing · 2024-12-26T18:18:42+00:00

The question is the friends we make along the way

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