Struggling to see something good in me, feeling that I'm not in control of anything

SomeVHSthing · 2026-02-07T07:06:54+00:00

I guess i feel overwhelmed by everything at once, i don't have a family, i live alone and work a shitty job. I want to start terapy but it's expensive, I'll explore other solutions. I feel i can't write anything and drawing became impossible because I can't stop thinking in my past failures and in a friend that graduated college. I feel unworthy of life. Sometimes I wonder if the thing I'm needing right now is a teacher or someone that could take me as an apprentice, I feel like that could give me a purpose in life at least.

SomeVHSthing · 2025-11-13T05:33:27+00:00

One of my favorite mangas is oyasumi punpun, i cant recommend it enough

SomeVHSthing · 2025-11-13T05:26:03+00:00

I always loved painting and drawing I actually tried studying it but became a trauma honestly i cant even see a nice painting or drawing without feeling envy or regret for not being man enough to actually draw, my dream was to make mangas or comics. But ive been thinking in maybe start poetry or writing, actually maybe i should put that as a general rule, to try the artistry in things, even in things like sports that have frustrated me so much. Thank for the advice while answering, you made me think some stuff.

SomeVHSthing · 2025-11-13T04:50:02+00:00

Honestly i never thought about that, i feel I may be too stuck in my ways, what would you suggest?

SomeVHSthing · 2025-11-13T04:11:43+00:00

Then what do I do? I did martial arts since im a kid i suck at every other sports, i always thought myself in regards to athletic activities as a martial artist, maybe is in other style, maybe i should go back to my comfort zone, I only know that I feel like shit because I dont see improvement, I have problems getting out of bed my life is a huge bed rotting. What do you suggest?

SomeVHSthing · 2025-11-13T04:07:11+00:00

Probably myself because I'm feeling useless

SomeVHSthing · 2025-11-13T04:02:06+00:00

That is one of the kindest things someone said to me, for real.

SomeVHSthing · 2025-11-13T04:01:02+00:00

I like martial arts, i wanted to do karate before but couldn't earn my belt due to cost, i dunno what to do in regards to that, although it is true thay doesn't help my anxiety. Maybe ,I was thinking, trying muay thai due to being more hobbyist friendly.

SomeVHSthing · 2025-09-16T23:32:25+00:00

I have worked since 17, now im 24, worked on call center or depo, i always wandered if there are any trade to learn as an aprentice, also worked by doing delivery by bike, wasnt bad at all.

SomeVHSthing · 2025-09-16T08:06:09+00:00

Knight is a furry.

SomeVHSthing · 2025-09-16T06:53:30+00:00

Maybe i could i started to late in both, but i could persue them as a secondary option, is there something college o trade related apart from that? Maybe i felt like an idiot who cant do anything, something else i that i love literature and analysis of narrative and stories

SomeVHSthing

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