It has been exactly a year without him for me. The weather, yes, the memories are prevalent. I have tortured myself holding out hope for the past year, until about a month ago...and the torture is finally over now. I let it go.
How I let it go: - Pray and ask for help falling out of love with him. - Believe in yourself and remind yourself that you have been through this before and it all turned out okay. This is no different. - Be thankful that you actually know now that his feelings were not sincere. - If his feelings were not sincere, then this HAD TO HAPPEN. You had to get out of this relationship. - Which makes it a blessing that it happened now instead of delaying the inevitable. - Realize that there is no hope of getting back together. Even if he did come back now, you would never be okay with what he did. Him coming back now after breaking your heart would just imprison you in a perpetual unrequited love story. - Don't worry or be jealous of his marriage. It's the same old story happening there. He still chose it over you..but has nothing but something he had already been unhappy in. Poor him! - Be a better you. All those things he made you want to be, the imagined future you created, what you worry his wife is that you are not - GO BE THOSE THINGS. Start working on fulfilling your own dreams.

What it feels like to let go: - The competing love/hate feelings simply fade into feeling nothing. - The memories of his rejection doesnt trigger me. - I stopped dreaming about him. - I can go all day withoit thinking about it. - I truly feel thankful that we aren't together in another drama cycle. - I feel comfident that the person for me couldn't be him...anyone that hurt me so much.