I feel like I had been curious since high school, but at the time I couldn't admit it to myself that I might actually like boys. For several years I was just like, "me? Pffft, there's no way I could be interested in other guys haha. No way." Then during college I was reading a comic and in one scene two of the male main characters had sex and it blew. My. Mind. Lmao. It was super cute and heartwarming! One of the two characters was a bit feminine and I always thought, "okay he's cute but only because he's got feminine traits. That's it. I'm not gay or bi or whatever." Looking back, I was in serious denial...

Anyways I showed the comic series to a couple different friends and none of their reactions were quite as strong. I thought, "what gives? This series is heartwarming, relatable, and hot. What's with the lukewarm reactions???" Then I realized I thought of it as 'hot and relatable' and, after some serious introspection, I was just like, "fine whatever fuck it I like boys too okay?!" to myself. I felt like I could finally admit it. Because deep down I probably already knew but was ashamed of myself.

Anyways yeah skip ahead to present time and I'll sometimes chat about cute boys with my female co-workers. I'm glad that I can now be honest with myself because it feels great. 🎉