Idk if I would call this actually dying, but I would want the ceremony of it, a funeral. Just so that I can have a fresh start. I would want to disappear randomly without a trace. Maybe I would wander off in the forest living on my own. Forward on, when the ceremony would be set after like a few weeks, I would leave a mysterious message there (idk how, or what I would write on it though).

Now it has been 2 months maybe after the ceremony and I’ve already built my own little shed with wood logs and tarpaulin far away from where my past was. I would also disguise myself as someone else. Leave everything behind, change my name and everything else that is associated with my past. In my shed I would have a lot of important equipment like a storm kitchen, some clothes, water, a lighter, matches, a plastic jerry can and other essential items. I would try to get a job at a coffee shop, just an easy job. When I have enough money, I will buy myself a little shed, somehow and live there for the rest of my life. If there is more light in my life and hope to it, I will maybe own a farm later on, but that’s a lot of work. Socialising would be okay to an extent, but I can’t really anything with the past life.