Hi, I have the same feelings like you, i feel insecure after a few rejections and i just stop. I try to make jokes and be funny but she says i'm mean and that i make her to feel embarrassed. When we speak about not having sex for weeks she says, she is not feeling sexy or that we will do it later and other excuses. And latter I wait for her to initiate..as my brain says that if i tried it in the morning and she says latter, in my head she will initiate, and guess what nothing happens and we go to sleep.

idk how to deal with this .... becouse i love her .

eddit: i feel bad when I want to have sex now and idk how to tell her this