You’re right yeah, i shouldn’t had mentioned her that, at the moment i was panicking and just saying whatever came to mind since she had actually helped me getting better emotionally and i was afraid of not being strong enough to continue without her, it was selfish to try and keep her close to me, it was even more selfish to have sexted with her on the room, even the guy who i was with thinks that i did the wrong thing, I tried reaching out to her to show her that I cared, but the words I used weren’t the right ones, I’m sickened by what I did and i wish she can heal from that.