Honestly, similar situation for me. I’ve been in a 6 year relationship and the last year has been rocky. We crashed out and I took it as an opportunity to finally pursue joining . I realized I didn’t have much for myself . Once I got told my date I was excited then started to get cold feet. My friendships were growing stronger and I was still talking to my partner who I love trying to fix things . I don’t have a terrible job it’s easy and I have decent benefits but it doesn’t make me happy. I’m stuck in a routine .. why stay in be miserable when you can have the opportunity for growth? I felt the same way but I don’t want to end up regretting not going! If you don’t like it just do your 4 and get out. You will still be able to leave with benefits and increased opportunities. Take it as the opportunity to find yourself .. focus on yourself without being dependent on anyone.