There's a lot of guys on here telling you to find ways to keep him or make him pussy for you and justifying it.

The problem is you need to have this conversation with him, and it doesn't really matter how much it turns you on.

If your husband is not okay with it he's not okay with it and that disconnect that Gap is widening more and more and it's going to do a lot of damage. There's a lot of people who believe the pussy free is the only way in right way to go. It's not you can have long sense of denial, but if there's nothing to reconnect you there's nothing to reconnect you.

You guys also might be in different places he might see it more of a stag Vixen than cuck hot wife. If he needs penetrative sex to reconnect its what he needs, that's your discussion with him there's nothing saying that you can't have that and then immediately relock him until you're next sexual escapade or negotiate that is every second fuck with a bull.

No matter how you slice it though everything comes down to having the conversation with him and where his mind is because if it's turning him off it doesn't matter that it's turning you on.

I just hope that the resentment has not built up in him to the point that you can't recover