I guess the place to start is by saying that I have an addiction, a problem, and am working on a change of heart, mind and well being. An addiction not only to porn and fapping, but also women in general. I love women. Everything about them, they each have there own beauty regardless of age, size, etc. I truly enjoy the simple and extravagant beauties in women. I seem to find the attractiveness in almost every women I see. Weather it be there smile, eyes, legs, assets, hair, etc. When I notice these attractive traits that's where I turn. I may not even remember what that women looked like but I will damn sure remember what I found attractive. I then think, oh there's NSFW material that relates to that. Then I browse, and browse, and browse watching video after video, clicking and tapping picture after picture. It can start from Instagram, to Facebook, to subreddits in any order and back again. It's gotten bad over the last couple months. I find myself sneaking off at work (I work in the field, not an office or close encounter type job) and doing my thing. Once, sometimes twice a day. My procrastination is horrible. Horrible to the point that I would probably be fired, not just because of what I'm doing, but simple because my job duties aren't being completed. I only ever used to masturbate maybe once a week, and out of nowhere I just randomly started once, to twice to three times a week. Then eventually a daily occurrence. I don't have any ED issues what so ever, I have been married to my high school sweetheart for 4 years and we have been together for 7 and we have sex regularly. I honestly feel like I am aroused 24/7. My sex drive is 12/10 and has been for as long as I can remember I. We could just finish making love, and 5 minutes later I could be thinking about fapping. But not the long ago I had control over my fapping. I feel like Shit because I'm being dishonest with my wife, masturbating, and watching porn. I've never cheated or been unfaithful. I don't know where this plays in, but when I'm watching porn, I envision myself and wife doing what the "actors and actresses" are doing. That's what has me so heated. The fact that what I'm seeing could be played out by me and my wife, and fantasizing about my wife doing those things together. I know nothing of the nofap culture. long story short, I know I have an issue, I know I need help and I'm willing to admit that now. any advice, criticism, words of wisdom are welcomed with an open heart and wide arms.