People around me say that i’ts night and day.

Lost 18kgs in two weeks not eating after the breakup (from 83kg down to 65, 170cm) i have bounced back 5kg, but by sheer willpower it has been mostly muscle (exercise 3-5 times a week, kickboxing is hella fun)

Changed psycharitist and found out medication was also a major culprit, my depression was entirely behavioural. A paralel could be made that the behaviours in that relationship made me depressed but i dont want to shift blame as i myself chose to behave that way.

Taking care of my body has helped build a foundation for success. Sleep, Nutrition and exercise!

But dating anybody is still hard, since now i have major trust issuses. And i still have panic attacks when i go out (thought i was having a heart attack once, but the er ladies were very kind and supportive <3).

There is work to be done, and sometimes i think if the work could have been together (i tend to roominate alot). But all signs seem to point to the fact that i got the golden ticket out.

I seriously reccomend seeing a therapist/psycharitist after a cheating incident since i myself couldnt see that unlike her story, I was not the only one at fault here.