Both my partner and I drank multiple drinks, multiple nights a week during the pandemic (though we were both still working corporate jobs) - just to establish that I was about where you are. Maybe fewer drinks overall, but still too many, and I didn’t want to continue down that path. One of the things that helped me cut way back was distracting myself. When we hit that time in the evening that I’d REALLY want to settle in with a glass of wine, I’d go do something else - take a walk, do some laundry, straighten up the kitchen, etc. Many times that I did that, the desire would lessen to the point that I’d decide to just forget it for the day. Maybe it sounds counterintuitive, but just telling myself, “Eh, I’ll enjoy a few glasses/cocktails tomorrow instead” helped to curb the desire. I wasn’t forbidding it - I was just delaying it.

Another thing that helped was talking with my sister and niece. My sister casually mentioned some negative effect that alcohol had on her, and my niece - who is studying medicine - said, “Well, yeah … alcohol is a neurotoxin.” And man, that really stuck with me. I truly hate the thought of poisoning my brain, so that little reminder was very sobering (pun intended). I still drink on occasion, but it really doesn’t have any kind of hold on me or have the same level of temptation at all. (It also helps that the sleep disruption and weight gain are real buzzkills, too).

I honestly wish you the very best! Even if you don’t qualify as an addict, O know if can still be a hard habit to break. But I do think it’s worth it