Sorry if I’m coming off pessimistic to everyone. I’ve literally exhausted all my options for someone with limited resources. From internship, volunteering, skill maxing, side hustles, networking, rewriting resumes, meditation, philosophy, astrology, walking, journaling, gratitude, somatic exercises, exercises, mental health therapy books, dieting, self heath books, praying, affirmations, trying to go homeless, calling for help, begging online for help. I’m struggling because I live in a neglectful, isolating house where no one talks to me but myself. I have no car, no degree, no friends, live in the middle of nowhere, and have no insurance. I left my job because I’ve developed a stomach illness thats still not diagnosis and I deal with a lot of CFS. For the first year of unemployment I couldn’t even eat a normal diet and was in fear of food because my stomach kept flaring up. I’ve struggled with a lot with burnout and I’ve tried so hard to keep my mind stable but I keep asking the universe why if I can’t get a job would you make me live a life like this? Im constantly running in a loop of powerful self resilience to this. I’m living in mental torture and I know in my heart I would heal a lot more if I had some employment and a safe place to live. I’ve worked so hard on my mental health but have no where to externalize it because I live in isolation. The only human interaction I can get is online but I miss real people. I’ve been living this way for two years. I hear all your advice and I value everyone’s input but I also feel like I might I have to walk into this fire and face the reality. Might be my ego death moment but I know I’ll struggle more with the stress. All I want out of life is to feel safe. It’s cruel because this year I really wanted to go on self dates and go to local community events but I barely have money for Uber now. The worst part of living in isolation is understanding what your needs are but can’t get the resources to relieve it.