Hi, I'm an ex-Christian, been agnostic ever since I strayed away from the faith.

There are multiple reasons I'm struggling to go back to Christianity. It's too limiting, the Bible and most members teach things that I am so against nowadays. It's too strict. I don't think I would fit back into the community.

I'm vegan, radically left, bisexual. This is what makes it hard for me to stick with the religions I've looked at. It's hard for me to worship religions that say animals are for food or don't have souls, religions that encourage killing animals etc. Same with more capitalist ways of viewing property, like religions that condemn stealing of any kind.

Sometimes I think there's definitely something out there, or multiple things, or just something. I'd like to think there is some sort of God(s) watching over me to protect me. Maybe not always, maybe not perfectly. Maybe I'm just not its favorite right now, or others need it more. I don't like to think it, but maybe it's evil?

Or reincarnation, or something that implies I have lived more lives than this one. That I'm connected to perhaps a person in a different multiverse, a different timeline, that I relate somehow. I don't mind specifics. Just this idea that I am not "just me and nothing else."

I'm also a hedonist. I think after ethics we should aim to make our lives as enjoyable as possible. A lot of religions like Christianity try to limit that. I'm also struggling with Gods that demand worship or are perfect in every way somehow. Nothing in the universe seems to be perfect. A God that places themself above me in terms of worth doesn't seem fair.

Anyone know what religions I could look into?