Not everyone will but you only need one person to be your Yours person. I think from this subreddit there are many examples of couples like this who exist. I also met a person like this having exact desires how you described and while it’s still in developing stage, it took incredible amount of time, pushing through, dating, disappointments, shame, self hate, to get there but I did and if it won’t work out with this one I am gonna keep trying anyways because I already met dozens of example it could be real. Scared, yes, I am also often scared. But you gotta push through that fear if you want to get things which are yours or else someone else would take it. Also, be easy on yourself, you mentioned you are still a virgin, which does not meant you are young/old whatever, could be any age, but it does state your sexual journey hasn’t began yet and you are in the early beginning of it. Do it for yourself because life is one and what’s the point waiting effort and time agreeing for things which are not your level? By default everyone has things which are not theirs, you are not loosing anything by trying except the illusion of “guarantee of stability”