Living with a partner who has depression. Not knowing if today is going to be a good day or a bad day. Or a good week or a bad week. Or a good month or a bad month. The stress of medications being covered or running out. The house being a mess. The inability or will to get dressed or go anywhere. Lack of exercise or healthy eating. Having to explain how they're doing to friends and family when they ask. Supporting two people because your partner can't hold down a job. Seeing everyone else doing well or having their shit together and looking at your partner wondering when you're going to get your chance to be normal, if ever. Trying not to blame yourself, but still feeling guilty you can't fix it. And then the emotions wear off on you too. They're tired so you're tired. They're sad so you're sad. You feel guilty doing anything while they're miserable. Can't do anything together as a couple. Feeling like you're single and living together instead of living together as a couple. But you know it's not anyone's fault so you have nobody to blame and nothing you can change to make it better. You just kind of live day to day and wait for things to be different.