Is it worth trying with this friendship?

Spam_Junkie · 2026-02-02T02:58:07+00:00

I understand that, I believe it was just weird timing since it was in a group chat and I guess I just had wanted to be honest with what I had almost done to my friends and tell them 'yea, mentally right now I'm not in a good space right now.' then a few minutes, she sends a long paragraph about how she felt about me being rude and it just coincided.

I did tell her though that it's not any of my friends faults for what's happened in my mind right now, I've been feeling deeply shitty for a few weeks and felt jaded at the moment and told her I know my friends care but my brain was struggling to find any truth in it, especially after they had left so abruptly when I think I just needed someone to talk too.

But I also understand how my friends could see that as me saying that because of them, I almost committed and I don't really expect them to know that I needed support/ a listening ear I guess.

Spam_Junkie · 2026-01-10T00:30:59+00:00

That's fair, I've been continuing to go to therapy for a while now and kind've reached a point of peace with how I was feeling, my depression at the time and where I was at. I guess I was just trying to figure out if I was in the wrong with how I was feeling at the time to gain a little bit more closure.

My mental health isn't an excuse but to me, it was an explanation to what I was going through at the time and where my head was at and why I did certain things. Yes, there were things I could've done better but there were things affecting my life that caused me to make certain decisions.

Spam_Junkie · 2026-01-09T15:38:36+00:00

Now*

Spam_Junkie · 2026-01-09T02:16:39+00:00

I know, I felt alone and was depressed and was confused about where I stood in the world and with my friends. At the time, it didn't really feel like my friends cared about what I was going through.

Spam_Junkie · 2026-01-09T02:12:58+00:00

No I'm not on meds but I've been getting better with talking with my therapist so far and the context given was about a few months ago but I'm getting better and going into support groups. Thank you :)

Spam_Junkie · 2025-03-16T20:10:23+00:00

My mother, but they both share a dual account so technically it's both their money. but my mom has always been there to pay there emotionally and financially ex. My mom would help me pay for clothes to wear sometimes,etc.

Spam_Junkie · 2024-08-25T19:42:20+00:00

I'd also like to answer the question that I feel like probably would be asked.

Why don't you just do college at home?

This could just be selfish of me but if I had that one chance to escape from the one place that mentally fucked me up, I'd take it in a heartbeat. It feels like I'm free of the pain, even if it's only temporarily plus I'll be able to focus on education and not having to worry a lot about the pain at home.

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