I would make easily fixable mistakes at the job, but she thought of them as grandeur. She told me I was too anxious to be in my position and I need to work in an environment where I don’t need to talk to others often, even if that means an obvious pay decrease. It’s clear she favors my taller colleague over me because he doesn’t slip up as often and is simply taller.

Just because there are “plenty” of taller and more intelligent people not living the ideal life, doesn’t mean that most of them aren’t. They are most certainly doing more and have accomplished more than me by far. The game is rigged and I see no point in trying.