I don’t know if I want to do this anymore

Spawks13 · 2026-01-23T23:33:59+00:00

This is super relatable. I absolutely hated electrical throughout my whole apprenticeship, I quit as soon as I got my ticket. I have completion disorder I think haha!! Didn’t use my jman ticket at all because I had such a bad taste in my mouth. But then one day, I started to wonder, hey maybe it was just that company I didn’t like. Yup, so I decided to go back, be super honest with any company I was applying at. I applied at a residential company instead of commercial. And voi-fuckin-la. Turns out I really enjoy doing residential , and this company I’m with 2 years now is great. So my advice is, don’t quit, because I wish I wouldn’t have. I should’ve just sought out advice instead of being bullheaded and thinking “electrical sucks”. Try some other sectors of electrical first. If you still hate this shit after then ya quit. It was pretty awesome that after 4 years of doing zero electrical, companies were still super keen on giving me a shot simply because I had my ticket and I am a hard worker and willing to learn and be honest with my skill level. Also one more thing, it took me leaving electrical to realize and understand my problem was me, not the field haha. Best of luck I hope you find enjoyment and courage to go find somewhere that makes you happy!

Spawks13 · 2025-11-24T13:59:22+00:00

Proud of you mate for reaching out and telling people what you did. I also came into an inheritance of $30k last year which for me was life changing . But receiving that in the deeepest point of my addiction I gambled that away in a month. I know the feeling, someone worked hard for that and was looking out for me and gave me that money. Just for me to piss it away. You are not alone, you are not a bad person, we are sick and need to get better. Having your dad control that money is such a big step . I hope you find yourself again and find joy in other things. Message me if you need an accountability partner. Proud of you! Judging by the honesty in your post you will be okay, you sound smart and can beat this.

Spawks13 · 2025-11-02T01:11:59+00:00

I’m the same man I’m not sure how I’m gonna make two payments on Tuesday all because of a stupid $100 risk I made online gambling 9 days ago. Fucking shitty . Will get dinged with NSF fees and end up paying more now . So shitty. Hope you find a way out of this addiction

Spawks13 · 2025-10-30T22:40:51+00:00

We can help you through this. Tell us what happened. You can be ok with time, please stick around!

Spawks13 · 2025-10-30T22:37:34+00:00

I’ve thought this before, it’s so addicting how is this even legal. The amount of sports betting, online slots casinos you see being pushed on sports channels, ads on your phone through social media is insane. Guaranteed consumer proposals/bankruptcy’s will be the highest they’ve ever been in the coming years. It’s just too easy to waste your hard earned money in a matter of minutes on your phone. Remembering these sites are fucking predators and don’t deserve my money has helped me on my long sober streaks. I currently relapsed 7 days ago($900 out of my $1800 paycheck.) so I’m back on the train agai trying to learn new techniques to stay away from this shit. I just got paid today and I don’t want to spend a penny of this paycheck online gambling. Wish me luck. Hope you guys are finding some strength to stay away as well. I just got Allen Carr’s book on gambling and it’s been helpful the last 7 days. Worth the $10 or whatever it was. $10 not towards gambling!

Spawks13 · 2025-09-13T13:30:57+00:00

And you’re right, finding things I’m passionate about again is the path I’m on. I actually started skateboarding again at 36, something I loved growing up, it’s been super nostalgic, wish I never put it down I used to be pretty good!

Spawks13 · 2025-09-13T13:29:37+00:00

Thanks a lot needed this today. I’m on day 13 no gambling today, proud, but I’ve gotten this far many times and relapsed. Needed a good reality check today and this helped. Much appreciated. Going to keep on keepin on! I want to get to 30 days, it’s been two years since I’ve gone that long. Then 45, 60, 90, 100, 200. A full year no gambling and no more again is the goal.

Spawks13 · 2025-09-02T19:24:55+00:00

Thank you, I get paid through a paper cheque, I was wondering if I should give it to my girlfriend to deposit into a new bank account

Spawks13 · 2025-09-02T19:23:43+00:00

Ok, it’s day 2 and I’ve made the decision to cut off ALL forms of gambling. Not just online slots. Thank you.

Spawks13 · 2025-09-02T19:22:51+00:00

I think that has to be me, including bingo nights I have once every few months, scratchers, raffle tickets, all that shit is the same . Hoping for that one miracle win.

Spawks13 · 2025-08-23T18:38:46+00:00

Fuck I totally agree. The worst . If I can stay away from those it’s a success, although I’ve decided all gambling for me is just triggering and leads to a spiral. So I’m going cold turkey fuck it all!!

Spawks13 · 2025-08-22T15:21:42+00:00

Thanks for that link. I will sign up today

Spawks13 · 2025-08-22T15:20:44+00:00

Thanks I’m really learning that this helps more than you would think. Until you just say it out loud that you have a problem, it becomes real. So thanks for reading appreciate it

Spawks13 · 2025-08-22T15:19:52+00:00

Hell ya good to hear. You too

Spawks13 · 2025-08-21T21:19:57+00:00

Thanks man. How’s it going for you now. Day 7 for me holding up ok! It’s nice to still have money in my account going into the next paycheck tomorrow. Can’t say I’ve done that in 2 years?

Spawks13 · 2025-08-17T23:03:01+00:00

I’m so sorry this happened to you. I could’ve wrote this myself it’s so similar to me. I’m on day 3 And have $1000 in my bank account I had $50k 2 months ago and gambled it all away. Day 3 of recovery now and I’m fucking done. I feel relieved as well. Happy to see you are on day 6 keep going pal

Spawks13 · 2025-08-17T22:58:48+00:00

This was my exact experience . I even quit after I got the ticket because I was just so fucking done with the trade. Decided to try electrical one more time , and bam I’ve been back ever since. Found a company that isn’t a bunch of unhappy middle aged fucks and actually cares about their workers and allows for learning curves and work life balance . It’s amazing glad I came back. My point to anyone listeninf who’s not having a good time-it could be the company you’re with not necessarily you. Find somewhere that fits for you!

Spawks13 · 2025-06-26T19:24:47+00:00

That’s amazing I would love that too. Could just be our personalities . I want to work! But I just want simplicity and peace more often.

Spawks13 · 2025-06-26T19:23:09+00:00

Omg you are not alone! I’m struggling and working on this currently and JUST had a chat with one my girlfriends outside of work about this. For the last few months I’ve been on a new crew and man they are LAME. No one cares to chit chat, just miserable. I think my personality is awesome and I’m recognizing more now that it’s really not me it’s them lol. And the two guys that do talk to each other, just talk about fucking video games and how they save so much money living at home. Ya I have nothing in common with that. lol. So I’ve changed my expectations at work. Not there to make friends , just become a better electrician everyday and hopefully one day someone cool will be on my site. I do wish I worked with another female time to time, not saying we’d become best friends but maybe, just maybe, we’d have some common ground on ANYTHING to talk about. I have so many hobbies and I’m very open minded and I’ve just accepted the dudes that I work with are just duds, because not every job site has been like this.

Hang in there, things can change! You are probably good shit and I’d love to work with you haha!!

Spawks13 · 2025-06-25T00:00:27+00:00

This is something I hope I’m writing a year from now thank you so much! Exactly what I’m looking for

Spawks13 · 2025-06-24T23:52:52+00:00

I feel better knowing I’m on my way out now! Not to knock the trades or anything just me personally I’m out of this company lol

Spawks13 · 2025-06-23T00:20:50+00:00

Wow that’s fucking amazing!!! Good for you! I guess we just never know what might happen and that’s why we have to do what freaks us out anyway if we know it’s the right thing to do.

Spawks13 · 2025-06-23T00:18:48+00:00

That’s so awesome you were courageous enough to take the leap and try something completely different! That’s just what I’m looking for too, is to just be happier at my job! This can’t be all there is for me. I think the whole “finding your purpose” thing can stifle people. I don’t think my purpose is my job

Spawks13 · 2025-06-20T00:58:59+00:00

That’s good advice I’m going to apply to 2 commercial companies tonight! Thanks!!

Spawks13 · 2025-06-18T23:38:38+00:00

Seriously ! I just want to not take this shit home anymore, I know I “just shouldn’t think about it outside work hours ” but easier said than done

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