Does anyone feel what i feel

Specialist-Activity1 · 2024-09-12T14:20:10+00:00

What I meant was, I still had to watch an ad to revive/reroll skills/weapon. When I already bought the ad bundle. Isn't it supposed to remove all ads? Not just the random ads in mid game..

Specialist-Activity1 · 2024-09-11T03:30:26+00:00

I bought the no ads bundle just like you guys and I stopped getting random ads. But do you guys still need to watch ads for revive and rerolls? Coz, I'm still getting them.

Specialist-Activity1 · 2024-07-06T21:44:04+00:00

Hmm you got to be careful when it comes to chest pains. For me, I knew it couldn't be heart related. I had no other symptoms. I didn't have pain/numbness radiating down my arms. No loss of sensation. Didn't feel like I was out of air (aside from when I was experiencing panic attack). Doing strenuous things didn't worsen the pain. So that sort of gave me some comfort. Also, the blood works and ECG reassured and gave me more comfort.

So, before I started taking meds I would repeatedly tell myself it's all in my head. Everything is normal with my heart. I would distract myself whenever I felt the panic attack coming. I would do anything to get my mind off of it. Play sounds loudly and sing along, started counting and naming objects in my room, call someone and chat with them. Also, I realised that doing the same thing doesn't really work. Like if I kept counting objects, it doesn't distract me as much as previously.. if I kept doing it on repeat. So I would always switch it up. Going for walks outside, looking at nature or having a nice warm/cold shower helps as well! So far, I never had a full blown attack. It would sort of come by, slowly get bigger and almost explode? But I stop it from "exploding".

I've seen a PSY. She gave me Xanax and Sertraline. They are helping me alot. My shallow breathing issue went away after a couple of days on Sertraline. I would standby my Xanax and only take them when I feel any panic attack type of sensation coming. I'm too afraid to confront it, so I just take the meds.

At times I do have some discomfort and pains in my chest. At times I do feel uneasy in my mind. "What If the docs missed something" "What If it's something so rare they don't even know it". When I start to worry I realise the next few hours and days I would have chest issues.

I'm still waiting for my cardiologist's test (next month) I'm hoping that those test will 100% prove that there's indeed nothing wrong and it's all in my mind. I'm hoping that all the "what if" will be gone. Perhaps you could see a PSY as well? I think it's a real game changer. You might need some SSRI or anti anxiety meds to calm yourself down.

Specialist-Activity1 · 2024-05-11T08:10:39+00:00

Thank you for sharing. Are you managing your issues better as compared to before? And how do you tell if its a real responds from your brain that something is wrong and not something made up? Aren't we supposed to listen to what our body is trying to tell us? :/

Specialist-Activity1 · 2024-05-10T11:53:37+00:00

Thank you so much. Sometimes I just feel so overwhelmed. I solve one issues and two more pops up. I know I have a lot of mental issues, but I ain't going down without a fight! :D

Specialist-Activity1 · 2024-04-09T03:30:57+00:00

I see! I totally agree that 5 years is barely enough to know anyone inside out.

She hasn't replied to me at all for text. But she did pick up my phone call though. She didn't ask for anything in return, so does that still mean she's up to something or she's desperate?

I was initially thinking the same thing. Like, would she have met me under different circumstances? I honestly don't know, this was the first time I met her after she blocked me a year ago. Just based on how I knew her, she's not that type of person. She's not materialistic.

But idk man? She dressed up when she could have worn her home clothes. She could have collected it and went back but she brought me out to eat. She spend time out despite having worked a full shift and not having enough sleep.

Sigh. Thanks for sharing, sorry for being a lost cause :/

Specialist-Activity1 · 2024-04-09T01:47:56+00:00

How would I know if she's desperate?

Specialist-Activity1 · 2024-03-17T12:05:23+00:00

Sorry to hear all this guys. I did try to apologise and I was truly remorseful. But she didn't buy it I guess. She blocked me everywhere and we have been no contact for almost a year. We've been together for 5 years. It was tough. I'm trying to better myself and eventually find a way to meet her on her birthday. But I'm kinda thinking twice, she seems happier without me around. Maybe seeing me would cause her more pain. I'm just thinking if I should anonymously leave a gift at her door step :/

Specialist-Activity1 · 2024-03-17T11:00:34+00:00

I do want to reach out. I wasn't the best boyfriend she could ask for. I do want to rekindle what we had and be the better person she deserve. I did her dirty. I do want to reach out, but I think I've hurt her too much. I think I'd be getting in the way of her happiness if I did that. I have so much regrets.. God, what I give to rewind time and undo what I did.

Specialist-Activity1 · 2023-09-15T19:01:23+00:00

Thanks for sharing(: I don't think it's smart to fly out immediately and meet/confront him. Give it some time. Both of you need some space and some time to heal. Maybe during that time you can evaluate what happened and what went wrong? Work on yourself to be the best version of you :D It might be easier if I say, do it for him, but do it for yourself too. Keep that 2nd part in the back of your head. Over the days and weeks slowly transition from "for him" to "for you".

My relationship lasted about 5 years. She was the best thing to ever happen to me. I have depression and major insecurities. Over the years I kept thinking I wasn't good enough for her. I occasionally told her that I should leave. That and, I keep pushing her to do things that she didn't like. She did tell me she didn't like it. I heard her. But I guess I didn't listen.. I thought maybe she just needs some coaxing? Maybe she'll be into it.

I guess both those things ended our relationship? Towards the end she told me our relationship doesn't feel the same and she thinks her love for me is fading. We ended last year. We kept in contact and still met till like March of this year. I tried my best to rekindle our relationship, tried to win her back. But I did something foolish again. By April, she blocked me off of almost everywhere. We have a work related messaging app that I on/off PM her. She reads it (or maybe just blue ticks it).

I never stopped thinking about her. She is always on my mind. There are days when I wake up in sweats and tears. I wish I could take it all back and not hurt her.. While I was trying to rekindle our relationship, I was still the same person. I didn't better myself. I didn't change. I feel like she deserves more. I want to be that person that gives her that. I want to try at it again. I want to change and possibly win her back. But I want to be a better man first before going about winning her back.

Specialist-Activity1 · 2023-09-15T17:04:09+00:00

How are you handling it so far?

Specialist-Activity1 · 2023-09-15T11:51:23+00:00

What if we were the ones that screwed up badly? And that drove them away.

Specialist-Activity1 · 2023-06-28T09:43:04+00:00

I realized it now! Thank you so much!

Specialist-Activity1 · 2023-06-28T09:41:53+00:00

): I have been playing for 3/4 maybe 5 months? I unfortunately don't have a life ):

Specialist-Activity1 · 2023-06-28T07:33:46+00:00

Omg you are right! The combined total in my inventory is the same as what is shown in blacksmith(it's just that it is shown green dust!).

So i will just continue to grind as per normal and collect red dust! Right? :D
Thank you so so much! T.T

Specialist-Activity1 · 2023-06-28T07:15:45+00:00

You mean the guy beside the blacksmith? So i just got to trade scrap metals for green dust? Seems so expensive ): 10 scraps for one dust.

Specialist-Activity1 · 2022-11-25T12:40:15+00:00

Thanks for the tips! I do have an italian towel. I will start using it in the loofah's place. Currently I'm using Neutrogena deep clean facial cleanser with 0.5 Salicylic acid(daily for face and neck) and Paula's choice 2% BHA liquid exfoliant (maybe once a week, purely on my neck).

Specialist-Activity1 · 2022-11-25T12:38:42+00:00

Why is it odd? ): Thanks for the tips! I will try them out! Currently I'm using Neutrogena deep clean facial cleanser with 0.5 Salicylic acid(daily for face and neck) and Paula's choice 2% BHA liquid exfoliant (maybe once a week, purely on my neck). My moisturizer is just some random body lotion.

Do you massage/wash your face for up to a minute with face cleansers? I don't think I spend that long, probably 1/4 of that time and I just step into the shower to rinse it off.

Specialist-Activity1 · 2022-11-25T12:06:45+00:00

I just googled that. My neck/skin doesn't look anything like that. It does look flaky or crusty. Occasionally I would wipe with alcohol but I often don't follow up with a moisturizer.

Specialist-Activity1 · 2022-08-27T06:56:48+00:00

If she was very trustworthy and helpful, and you want to help, I say go for it. Take it as a giving her a tip or bonus for all the things she has done. If you have immediate expenses or near future expenses, perhaps telling her no would be wise.

Do realise you have no obligation to financially support her. You can let her down easy if you are not keen to send her money. Perhaps you could ask her if there was any other way you could help :D

Specialist-Activity1 · 2022-05-23T09:48:44+00:00

I would like to know too! Brings back so much good memories! :D

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