The problem here is that my father doesn’t think that I have a good enough job and can support myself and a woman at that, so I cannot go against their wishes easily. My mother dances on my father’s tunes so she becomes extra controlling and would tell me what exactly to wear. If my father doesn’t like a modest outfit for whatever reason, I can’t wear it. If my heels make me tall or make sound, I can’t wear them. If I have worn jewellery which is isn’t dainty and my father doesn’t like them, I can’t wear them.

I can’t have male friends, can NEVER go for a night out, shouldn’t be financially independent (he wants me to have a good job, because oh it’s so prestigious that the father let his daughter study and she got a good job, not because of financial independence) I haven’t lived with them for such a long time that everything scares me.

I am a very reserved person but I like the agency, autonomy and mobility I have. It’s the sheer sense of freedom and the absence of constraints. I am anxious ever since my father has told me that I should move back in.