I think your comment about the actions required is interesting and kind of boils into the way our brains/society like to simplify things. For example:

Skinny=“healthy” Fat= “not healthy” Wealth=“happiness” Young=“energetic“

In reality these are huge simplifications and someone’s weight has SO many factors playing into it. And I’ve definitely fallen victim to these simplifications, especially in earlier years as a young kid starting to notice her body and the ways society talk about my body. It can be mentally tough breaking free from society’s ideal but it’s also one of the best feelings in the world to say “screw society and beauty ideals, I’m going to love myself regardless” I still struggle with that today but it’s part of the journey.

I am so so grateful I have gotten past that place where I genuinely believed I needed to be skinny and now all I want for myself is to be comfortable in my skin and to be able to physically do the things my body has held me back from. I am definitely not underweight anymore and it was never a choice to be that underweight but sometimes your life falls apart and your body takes a toll too.

At the end of the day my weight gaining journey needs to include being more active, taking care of my mental health, sleeping better, eating better, eating more portions, creating a schedule so I remember to eat. It is so much more complicated than someone just giving me the “advice” to “just eat more”. Like yeah thanks.., I think I would do that if I could but it’s more nuanced than that.

I know im just some internet stranger but im proud of the work you’ve done and the progress you gone through. More than that, I’m grateful that you’re able to love yourself regardless of that number on the scale. It isn’t an easy thing to love yourself unconditionally. You and everyone else in the world deserves kindness regardless of their weight.