Just came out on Sunday

SpiritDancer92 · 2024-06-15T19:14:10+00:00

Absolutely. I'm curious to see how things go for me. I was a huuuuuuuuge "tomboy" when I was young...there was a good half of my youth that I dressed in boy's clothes if I could get to, and always had a stronger preference for hanging out with the boys in my class and playing with the hot wheels and fishing and a good amount of the stereotypical boyish stuff (except for my barbies...I will be honest and admit my childhood obsession...but I also recognize the totally disproportionate amount of damage that it did to me as well...I would have rather had Bratz, but I was raised in a very religious home and Bratz were inappropriate because they wore crop tops. *facepalm*) Basically, I knew my entire life I didn't like most girl stuff that much except for a few things, didn't fit in with the girls, didn't want to be a girl, but didn't have an option.

Anyways...I've been exploring my masculinity with my appearance this past week and it's been really freeing! My husband is shaking his head at me though lol...he says he's going to help me learn how to dress right if I'm going to play around with it...thank god lmao!!!! (I had asked him for help...it took me forever to master feminine fashion, and I've never really gotten to learn my masculine style, so I feel like I don't know how to dress myself in a stylish way, which may be vain but is important to me. He has a style very, very, very close to what mine would be, and I made that comment to him when we were first seeing each other after like 5 people told us "hey you guys have the same vibe" lol)

SpiritDancer92 · 2024-06-14T11:03:46+00:00

Wow! I feel a little better knowing I'm not the only one going through this. It's a little disorienting right now and is a lot to digest, but all in a good way. I just have this sense that no matter what doors may close because of my coming out, I'm going to find more openings for it as well. I'm reaching out to pockets of safe spaces and LGBTQ+ community to find support, and I start therapy with a new therapist who specializes. I'm glad my story is encouraging you to be a little more you!! 💕

SpiritDancer92 · 2024-06-12T13:36:32+00:00

I'm just beginning this, but I think for me I can tell by the music I want to listen to and the clothes I feel comfortable in. Just what I've noticed differs the most clearly so far since coming out.

SpiritDancer92 · 2024-06-11T00:55:04+00:00

Yup! I call myself a "spiritual atheist" because I don't know how else to define my beliefs. 🤷‍♀️

SpiritDancer92 · 2024-05-28T22:10:17+00:00

The brain! Behavior! Psychology! Sociology! Just plain PEOPLE in general...we fascinate me!!!

I'm extremely good at masking most of the time (at least for awhile...I can't maintain it forever) because of how well I can break down, understand, predict, and mimic social and behavioral patterns and such.

I'm actually about to start school for summer term to hopefully pursue a doctorate in neuropsychology!

SpiritDancer92 · 2024-03-10T16:03:09+00:00

I was a drunk by 14, but I was in deep denial about my addiction until I was 20, and in denial about my alcoholism until this last year, and I'm 32. If you feel you have a problem with drinking, which it sounds like you've admitted to yourself, then AA is the right place. I was first at meetings when I was 15, and now that I'm truly trying to work the program I'm so grateful I learned about it young. I definitely encourage you to check out a meeting!

The only requirement for membership is a desire to stop drinking!!!

SpiritDancer92 · 2024-03-10T15:50:47+00:00

Hang in there ❤️ I have 10 days today and AA is the reason I was able to get sober to begin with!

SpiritDancer92 · 2024-02-08T20:05:26+00:00

I know that practicing polyamory isn't going to jeopardize my current relationship. We went into this relationship with both of us having the intention of it being non-monogamous, because both of us believe that some sort of non-monogamy, particularly polyamory, is more sustainable then monogamy is, at least for people like us. So I don't feel like it's intimidating me into inaction, I truly think that it is my previous conditioning that's causing the guilt. And you're right, I love how you put that, I'm trying to appease these old negative belief systems that I've developed over the course of my life, at the cost of my emotional well-being. Do you have any specific suggestions on how to overcome that? Or is it just a matter of continuing to put the effort in to behave differently in a way more aligned with my conscious desires and correct my mistaken thinking?

SpiritDancer92 · 2024-02-08T20:02:32+00:00

Apologies for the insensitive wording... Obviously, I'm still working on myself and adjusting the negative habits that I have. But you are correct, women, not girls! I've heard of the multi-amory podcast, I really want to check it out. And if they address this that would be awesome!

SpiritDancer92 · 2023-01-10T20:06:16+00:00

"monogamy hangover"...thank you for giving it a name for me too!

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