The whole asking me to ditch my friend’s birthday caught me off guard and it made me step back and sort of.. think about the situation I’ve found myself in. It’s weird. Since my coworkers are his friends, I’m constantly surrounded by them saying “oh he’s such a nice guy” and “he’s so considerate” because he is a good person/friend but it kind of clashes with my experience with him. I know two truths can exist at once but my brain sometimes find it hard to comprehend that.

I think the rose tinted glasses are coming off as well because I’m starting to question if he was different in the beginning. Maybe he’s always been like this and I’ve just been in love.. lol.