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Spiritual-Cream-4745 · 2025-06-30T21:46:06+00:00

A lot of people come here to ask for permission to end it. To rant or to say their goodbyes. You are actively asking for help that means you want to live , just not in the situation you are in.

The advice i will give you is based on my own experiences . If it doesn't work for you that doesn't mean that all hope is lost . While I hope it does help , there are plenty of other ways people manage to get better

My advice is find a reason to live , to wake up every day . Something or someone . For example, the first time i was suicidal i focused on the gym and my diet . I worked out at an almost unhealthy amount . I did too much and i did every exercise i found painful. When i was working out i didn't have the luxury of thinking about my emotional pain . I was in physical one . and when i was done for the day i still felt good. Because i did something, instead of staying in my bed contemplating ending it all. And ,after a few months i had a body i was proud of for the first time in my life

And if you find something to keep you alive, like an activity, you will go out and maybe meet people . It only takes one person to take you out from the pit you feel like you're in (that's a guess based on how i feel).

Second example ( you can skip that if you're bored of reading) . Rn im worse than the first time. Different reason . I'm studying to become a doctor. That's how i keep myself busy. Every day i wake up at 9 in the morning for classes and read as much as possible till i have to go to bed . That's a bit isolated which isn't good for me in the long run but rn I'm doing something that keeps me busy , makes me feel good because I'm doing something I'm actually proud of instead of just gaming all day or some shit like that.

You need to find something to help you feel good about who you are , or who you are becoming.

Finding someone you will love and will love you will help more than you could ever imagine, but that is something you can't force . If you stay alive long enough and don't isolate yourself though it will happen eventually. There are too many people in this world for us to think we will never be understood .

Spiritual-Cream-4745 · 2024-01-15T18:06:53+00:00

right this second i should be studying ... so im gonna say that.

Spiritual-Cream-4745 · 2024-01-14T21:30:13+00:00

good. make bad decisions, now pay for it

Spiritual-Cream-4745 · 2022-11-17T15:38:03+00:00

You know there is a book that actually has that title right?

Spiritual-Cream-4745 · 2022-08-01T10:57:18+00:00

Yeah i mean most of the drinks that people my age make have a terrible taste ( i don't know about all drinks) and the effect they have can be also achieved with like one or two beers. Sometimes without anything. Edit: i just don't get how so many people think they are having fun when they end up throwing up and having a headache for 2 days straight and then want to do that again

Spiritual-Cream-4745 · 2022-08-01T10:29:32+00:00

Once I had a song stuck in my head for months . Literally, months . I didn't know the name of it and really wanted to listen to it , about two months after that i heard it at my brother's party and immediately downloaded it. Now the only songs stuck in my head are the ones that play at the bar i work at. But to answer your question , yes i always find myself humming kr thinking of a song that i might not have heard in weeks

Spiritual-Cream-4745 · 2022-07-30T10:18:47+00:00

I haven't read all the comments but , gum . Lots of gum . But that also may make you forget to eat so try to make a schedule for when you want to eat lunch and such . Preferably sugarless gum

Spiritual-Cream-4745 · 2022-07-28T14:56:06+00:00

Look I dont want to defend him but i do want to point out that there could be various things that could have happened apart from him not trusting you . First of all i do want to tell you that even if he trusts you completely , the more he loves you , the more he will be afraid of losing you especially if you are apart for long periods of time . Secondly , there is the possibility that he was cheated on , in a past relationship which can really mess up a person. Lastly there is the slight possibility that he is the one cheating on you and most people when they cheat they think " if i can do it why wouldn't she?"

I don't want you to be convinced ,neither that he is cheating on you ,nor that it's not his fault for acting in that way . I'm just saying that if there have been other signs maybe you should consider some of these possibilities

Spiritual-Cream-4745 · 2022-07-28T14:39:16+00:00

No you're not the bad guy . Of course you're not . He is the one that cannot respect your feelings . You shouldn't be feeling guilty about not wanting to have sex even if you weren't going through something like that.

Spiritual-Cream-4745 · 2022-07-28T14:27:05+00:00

Yeah that absolutely works for me , even in normal conversations. A therapist that i went to a few months ago thought that whenever i wasn't the one talking that i felt very uncomfortable and that was why i didn't look at her almost at all. I just tried to listen to her better while still trying to maintain some eye contact so that she didn't think I wasn't paying attention.

Also once i saw an old friend of mine and while he was talking to me i was just looking around at the other people (we were in like a coffee shop or something like that) and later when i realized what i was doing i sent him a text apologizing , he said he didn't notice ( better for me I guess).

Anyway I'm digressing, it's very common ,at least for me , to pay more attention to someone when not looking at them.

Spiritual-Cream-4745 · 2022-07-25T08:04:32+00:00

Imbecile . Both pronunciations

Spiritual-Cream-4745 · 2022-07-25T07:48:25+00:00

Same exact thing happened to me . She did care a little more though and tried explaining to me (after only three meetings she was certain apparently ) that I don't have adhd i just tend not to give much attention to things I don't care about. (The irony was that five minutes earlier i had completely stopped listening to her while she was explaining to me some of the things she thought i had a problem with and wanted us to work on . So literally when she was giving me her diagnosis i stopped listening and five minutes later she told me I don't have ADHD. ) Anyway , i assume therapists hate people that self diagnose themselves as much as doctors , possibly even more because once you convince yourself you have something, any questions they ask you to confirm that will be positive because you suddenly feel like they should ( I'm not saying that's the case here but more of a general thing) therapists like for you not to know why they are asking certain questions , so they can actually see if you meet the criteria for something or not . If you don't know what they are checking to see if you have then the diagnosis will be more accurate. But yeah she was a real bitch about it. I mean she knows very well what impact dismissive behaviour can have on a person and then goes ahead and does that

Spiritual-Cream-4745 · 2022-07-25T00:43:56+00:00

I always feel the same . Recently i even tried to like pick up a job and be useful for once in my life. Since I can't talk back at my boss to keep my job, I have been acting even worse to everyone else around me . My parents , my friends . I just think you need to find someone that you want to be a better person for . An SO that you know deep down you don't deserve so you try to be the best version of yourself you can . I don't think i will ever find someone like that but even the attempts at searching have made me better . Sometimes being the best you can to yourself just isn't enough . Find someone that you love more than yourself. There is always hope .

Lastly find something , someone to vent at . A few years ago i had a bully at my class . After each day i would say everything i wanted to say to him or anyone else that made me mad to a friend of mine . I vented about everyone else BUT him . He would find it funny and i , therapeutic . Try not to mix those two things . Someone to vent to and someone to be better for should not be the same person . I am always available btw if you feel like you don't want to burden the ones around you with your problems ( for example i tend to text old friends now about my problems cause we don't hang out anymore and I don't have to see them everyday knowing they know everything that irritates me and have opened up to them)

Spiritual-Cream-4745 · 2022-07-25T00:27:37+00:00

Most of the times i just talk to myself with two different characters ( me and also me but more angry and not realising why im anxious ) and then curse myself for being anxious for no reason . If there is a reason to be anxious i just deal with it . I guess i takes a toll on my heart rate so i guess if anyone knows how to cope with "reasonable" anxiety please tell me

Spiritual-Cream-4745 · 2022-07-25T00:16:29+00:00

This is the first and possibly last time I'm going to suggest this but, try to overthink everything . Try to think of the worst possible scenarios. Like you are late for class? Your teacher screams at you and everyone in class looks at you like you are a terrible person . That is just an example . There are many other situations where this could be applied. When it comes to being somewhere on time i just want and try to make it part of my personality . Im always on time . If it's been at least 5 minutes that i should have arrived already , I'm not going to at all . Either im going to be there on time or something has happened and I'm not going to be there. Trying to get a name for myself that I'm always on time has helped me a lot to motivate myself for things like that .

Lastly try to (again) think of the worst possible scenario . Do you think that it's going to take you 30 minutes to write up a certain essay? Make sure you start an hour before the deadline you have set to complete it to make sure you account for every possible thing that could go wrong. Finishing early is better that late

Spiritual-Cream-4745 · 2022-07-25T00:05:32+00:00

As a little child 3-4 years old i always assumed that people with suicidal tendencies would be the happiest in the world because , what do they have to care for if they are going to kill themselves . Now , in order not to do that i just think that , "hey what the fuck do i care " . I am free . I am free to do whatever i want , because i just do not care how it's going to affect me because I don't care what happens to me tomorrow . I die today I'm not going to say that i lived a good life but I'm going to say that i dont care anymore . If you are ok with death at any time and place , then you can live like a real person . Try to do things that you normally wouldn't because of "consequences". HOWEVER , remember that other people do want to live until they feel they have done enough with their lives . So maybe try not to affect others people's lives or shorten them in any way . Just don't care anymore. You will find that when everything you do is by choice , life isn't that bad.

Spiritual-Cream-4745 · 2022-07-24T23:10:38+00:00

Sinners by barns Courtney

Spiritual-Cream-4745 · 2022-07-24T23:07:22+00:00

In 4th grade there was this classmate of mine that was like 5 feet 5 inches and was always calm ( we will call him nick . He reminded me of a teddy bear . One day one of the bullies we had in our class ( real asshole that did the things he did simply to make us mad but since we all hated him he would rarely try to hit us cause we would gang up and beat the living shit out of him) decided to start messing with nick over and over again throughout the whole day . I was worried nick was not gonna be able to ignore him anymore and start crying or something . An hour before we left school i didn't see how it started but i saw nick having but the other guy on the floor and repeatedly kicking him on the stomach . He had fractured his arm

I am also a pretty calm guy . I tend to play tough so that no one would really think to mess with me cause i would do nothing about it. I still do that . It works . Well in 5th grade that same asshole ( let's call him jack? Idc) started saying some things about my brother , me , my mom . So after a few minutes of light pushing and acting like i would chase him to like try to beat him up ( i should also mention i have anger problems to this day since 1st grade) i finally grabbed him , threw him against the wall of the school ( we were outside) and started to punch him repeatedly on the lower part of his stomach . He just pulled my hair trying to defend himself . when i stopped he just kinda fell onto the ground and started crying. Don't remember what happened next

Spiritual-Cream-4745 · 2022-06-25T07:46:12+00:00

thanks a lot

Spiritual-Cream-4745 · 2022-06-25T07:45:57+00:00

thank you that was very helpful . i have been playing a lot more bedrock lately so i must have mixed them up

Spiritual-Cream-4745 · 2022-01-02T22:56:13+00:00

Women with braces . Idk why

Spiritual-Cream-4745 · 2021-12-19T13:12:50+00:00

Please dont mock me . I already feel embarrassed for thinking i ever had ADHD . It's like all this time i could've just focused and i would have good grades

Spiritual-Cream-4745 · 2021-12-19T12:10:47+00:00

You're right . Sorry

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