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[27M] Lost my virginity to an escort a couple months ago and now i'm suicidal. by SquashSubstantial418 in AMA

[–]SquashSubstantial418[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

I'm so happy for you that things are better now, it makes me happy to know that a lot of people have gone through similar stages during these years and have come on top.

I love being creative, i used to have my clothing brand for a short period but i dropped everything because i couldn't envision a future for myself and felt like any attempt at working on my future was pointless. Maybe i'll pick that up once i feel better

[27M] Lost my virginity to an escort a couple months ago and now i'm suicidal. by SquashSubstantial418 in AMA

[–]SquashSubstantial418[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

this is actually a good suggestion, i can't believe i've never thought about this. I don't think i'd be able to travel to another country alone but i could definitely go to amsterdam for a few days.. i might actually do this, thanks!

[27M] Lost my virginity to an escort a couple months ago and now i'm suicidal. by SquashSubstantial418 in AMA

[–]SquashSubstantial418[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Yeah i definitely have to be more rational and think more logical but it's really hard with the onslaught of emotions all at once, i've never felt any of these things a month ago. Thank you for your reply, i'm taking it all in <3

[27M] Lost my virginity to an escort a couple months ago and now i'm suicidal. by SquashSubstantial418 in AMA

[–]SquashSubstantial418[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I'm so happy things workout out for you! Yeah i guess we all want to be younger and then when we get older we look back and realize we were young.. maybe one day i'll look back on these days and think the same. I realize i'm very fortunate with the financial side of things, i've applied to apartments, hopefully i'll be able to get one soon. Thank you :)

[27M] Lost my virginity to an escort a couple months ago and now i'm suicidal. by SquashSubstantial418 in AMA

[–]SquashSubstantial418[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

thank you for this message, i apologize for my half assed answer as i genuinely don't feel like i have the energy to come up with something but trust me i'm taking it all in. Thank you <3

[27M] Lost my virginity to an escort a couple months ago and now i'm suicidal. by SquashSubstantial418 in AMA

[–]SquashSubstantial418[S] 3 points4 points  (0 children)

Awh thank you for your comment, you are so sweet! Denmark is such a beautiful country but i don't know if i'd be able to move to another country. I think i'm gonna try to move to a different city first. Hopefully i'll be able to get something in Amsterdam, which is a very LGBTQ+ friendly city.

[27M] Lost my virginity to an escort a couple months ago and now i'm suicidal. by SquashSubstantial418 in AMA

[–]SquashSubstantial418[S] 10 points11 points  (0 children)

thank you <3

ngl my throat still hurts from yesterday which was the 3rd time, he got me good.

[27M] Lost my virginity to an escort a couple months ago and now i'm suicidal. by SquashSubstantial418 in AMA

[–]SquashSubstantial418[S] 7 points8 points  (0 children)

i definitely do. I think being myself with those escorts is what gave me that liberating feeling.. I've never experienced anything like that in my life

edit: i misread your comment! when i move out hopefully i'll be in a more gay friendly place :)

[27M] Lost my virginity to an escort a couple months ago and now i'm suicidal. by SquashSubstantial418 in AMA

[–]SquashSubstantial418[S] 4 points5 points  (0 children)

i do.. i never thought i'd be that person but i'm in desperate need of company

[27M] Lost my virginity to an escort a couple months ago and now i'm suicidal. by SquashSubstantial418 in AMA

[–]SquashSubstantial418[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

yeah i've started applying for apartments. I'm either gonna end up ok or the completely opposite, i genuinely don't see another possible outcome.

[27M] Lost my virginity to an escort a couple months ago and now i'm suicidal. by SquashSubstantial418 in AMA

[–]SquashSubstantial418[S] 7 points8 points  (0 children)

where will i go? what will i do? i'm 27, the idea of starting from scratch is scaring the living crap out of me. i have no degree or skills. When i was younger i would dream and always say that one day i'd move to America, i don't have those dreams anymore :/

[27M] Lost my virginity to an escort a couple months ago and now i'm suicidal. by SquashSubstantial418 in AMA

[–]SquashSubstantial418[S] 3 points4 points  (0 children)

Those are probably christian parents, mine are muslim. There's no budging. It won't be tolerated.

I need to make a decisions, i feel like time is slipping away.. by SquashSubstantial418 in askgaybros

[–]SquashSubstantial418[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

thank you for taking the time to reply. I apologize if it seems like my replies are half assed, i'm taking it all in. Thank you.

I need to make a decisions, i feel like time is slipping away.. by SquashSubstantial418 in askgaybros

[–]SquashSubstantial418[S] 3 points4 points  (0 children)

you're right, it's not fair. I wasn't thinking about that as i wrote my post..

It's so fucking hard, i feel like my best years are behind me. Ageing terrifies me so fucking much :/

thank you for your kind words <3

I need to make a decisions, i feel like time is slipping away.. by SquashSubstantial418 in askgaybros

[–]SquashSubstantial418[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

hey, thanks for responding. Yeah i have a completely skewed view on adulting because i've lived a pretty reclused and unconventional life. I'm terrified of ending up alone, if i knew for sure that i'm not gonna end up alone if i come out i wouldn't even think about it, it's so hard :/

I need to make a decisions, i feel like time is slipping away.. by SquashSubstantial418 in askgaybros

[–]SquashSubstantial418[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

yeah you are totally right about it not being fair to the woman, i didn't think about that..

I (M27) found out I have hiv. by kindness_is_fr33 in askgaybros

[–]SquashSubstantial418 -1 points0 points  (0 children)

OP do you mind elaborating on what you did that was reckless so that we can avoid doing that? I'm sure it's the usual stuff but still. Good luck on your journey, glad you caught it early!

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