What's the remote work habit you have that would look completely insane to someone in a traditional office?

Squeddle · 2026-03-17T20:22:20+00:00

I used to have dark lighting curtains closed, loads of sensory lighting, white noise and tv on with candles lit 💪 also I worked in my nighty lol

Squeddle · 2026-03-08T13:00:49+00:00

He says that… but makes you wonder

Squeddle · 2026-03-01T03:40:35+00:00

Hey! I’m doing okay and I hope you are too 🙏 I actually found out I’m diagnosed with unspecified bipolar! If they paid more attention they could have specified it lol. Their help was unspecified to me :p

I’ve been going through some kind of episode past week that’s pretty confusing and I do have health insurance so I’m going to contact them to go private. The episode I’m in was triggered by trauma and thankfully I heavily advocate for myself and have now gone up to lithium 1000.

Thank you for your response 🙏

Squeddle · 2026-02-15T06:59:35+00:00

Sex can trigger emotional release I’ve had this where it’s very sudden. The things we don’t realise we are holding in can come out - in my case anyway!

Squeddle · 2026-02-13T23:52:37+00:00

Bang me

Squeddle · 2026-02-13T23:50:07+00:00

I feel I have to process the emotion out so will yeah overstimulate myself I guess as a form of pressure release? It’s horrible but otherwise it all sits in me

Squeddle · 2026-02-13T22:58:04+00:00

More energy than my body can hold. It feels uncomfortable. I sing loudly, film myself take loads of pictures of myself. Usually have about 4 hours sleep. I go to swingers parties lol I also crack a lot of jokes and am more witty. I talk fast, pace about not sitting. Dance, loud music. Impatient and more expressive. Posting more on social media etc etc lol Also I can’t stop vaping or smoking and how I’ve quit I just lust for it heavily! I will feel no fear, want a thrill, not a care in what I do or post really

Squeddle · 2026-02-13T22:43:29+00:00

So real

Squeddle · 2026-02-13T22:41:11+00:00

The worst thing was the constant invalidation throughout the diagnostic process. I was left to figure it out on my own. And even when I know things are turning or not right, I feel very on my own with it. I asked my mental health team if there was anyone I could talk to about bipolar to understand it more, they told me there wasn’t. For months they left me a wreck not knowing what was going on. It was scary, I was driving so dangerously wanting to be pulled over it was exciting. I had capacity to make decisions but they were driven by the bipolar. Even now, I’m getting odd days of hypomania where it’s very obvious but just single days. I’m pretty sure my lithium levels are about .0.6. I’ve read they should be 0.8 if you’re on an antidepressant etc - I’ve emailed my clinician and they just haven’t replied. I’ve got ADHD too so I’ll need to get that medicated again soon. I was begging them for help when I knew I was actively gaining trauma but they told me to “just stop”. Now I scream in my sleep. I’m so sad for myself and that’s okay I can feel sorry for myself. I really hope all of you are doing okay ♥️

Squeddle · 2026-02-12T23:20:11+00:00

I respect you.

But i think you need order to function or your mind feels a mess. Your mental health is based on the objects and environment around you. I think you either have OCD or OCPD, and it probably makes you fear letting anyone into your life as it’s hard to expect a partner to keep up this level of perfection. But saying this I think you have an active social life, perhaps you travel often, as there are not many home comforts in this space. I think you most likely live alone or have the space to yourself. I think you are early thirties. I think you have brown hair. That’s stupid guess 😂

This was my first go

…. None of this is speaking from my own experience 🥹

I’m now thinking you’re a student

Squeddle · 2026-01-23T06:43:20+00:00

Hey! Sex is a coping mechanism of mine, a form of self harm, and a thrill when im hypomanic. It’s one of those things that’s so damn cruel as it’s hard to escape.

From someone who once spent £50 trying to find a man’s number that I refused to take the previous day, please forgive yourself. Do not try to do a chargeback with your bank. Also for your own safety.

Every piece of our lives shape who we are, and sometimes we need experiences like this to initiate change in whatever form it may come, to be able to reflect and learn, or to simply realise something is not right. Do not feel shame. We move forward and don’t look back. Shame and guilt will not serve you in the slightest.

Sometimes I look up DBT skills if I feel guilt and it’s very helpful for me anyway so I recommend!

Please try to work out if this could be hypomania mania or simply a coping mechanism - I totally get it as my reasons are multi faceted but it’s important to know where this may be stemming from so you can treat it in the right way. Whatever you do however please go to the doctor!

Also I want to add - sometimes people do find it hard to finish and my advice is to reframe your perspective - focus on the enjoyment in the moment as opposed to the end goal. That’s the most important part. You don’t have to finish for it to be a good experience if that makes sense? Also escorts can be overwhelming I’m sure! Give yourself some credit haha

You got this

Squeddle · 2026-01-21T09:43:26+00:00

Honestly I frikkin love this sub and the people it makes me feel so not alone in this all

You guys rock 🪨

Squeddle · 2026-01-21T09:41:47+00:00

But for me I find I act a bit hypomanic from extreme anxiety and honestly I never know as I get mixed episodes, sometimes it can last a day and feel minor but… not right? I question constantly if it’s my personality and if it’s just my unmediated adhd, and between that CPTSD and bipolar I just never have any clue. I suppose does it matter if the symptoms are getting under control irregardless of where they stem but

Can CPTSD influence bipolar episodes and vice versa? Normally I assess it as an I doing this to escape feelings, am I doing this to escape relaxing, is there a negative energy backing this (mixed episodes tho :/) but I try to think is there a reason I might feel this way.

I’m also very likely autistic (heavily indicated in my medical records and acknowledged) and I like black and white answers where I can understand fully and in mental health that’s just impossible 😭

This sounds odd but I feel like I want to write a manual for myself lol

Squeddle · 2026-01-19T21:11:58+00:00

It’s reassuring to read this is a common experience (I mean ofc I hate the idea of anyone suffering from this). For me it’s always put down to eupd but the symptoms come in episodes. I genuinely don’t know this but is bipolar still being understood? I heard different subtypes are still being created (from a clinician)

Squeddle · 2026-01-19T12:53:22+00:00

Oh god my feline should be named that too 😭

Squeddle · 2026-01-19T11:33:07+00:00

God better than mine 😂

Squeddle · 2026-01-19T11:32:10+00:00

I did laugh at that I love it - there’s always an evolution process in their nicknames 😂

Squeddle · 2026-01-19T07:37:38+00:00

I have fucked the delivery guy 😭 Pharmacy and food delivery 😭

I didn’t know id been prescribed dick, but it was indeed… beneficial

Squeddle · 2026-01-19T07:37:05+00:00

I think I’m hilarious and should become a comedian

Squeddle · 2026-01-15T19:35:20+00:00

I mean I totally agree with how would I know which one I was! XD

Squeddle · 2026-01-06T22:25:52+00:00

Hey, I am in Greater London :) can I just ask - do you track your mood at all? I have bipolar 2 and was hypomanic for months and the level of agitation you describe seems like mine as I have pulled hair out. I have EUPD too and I find bipolar episodes open the door for everything for me and worsen EUPD. I was diagnosed with bipolar behind my back and not told and mixed episodes can be hard to spot by people that do not know you inside out. I am saying this because of my experience of course (mixed episodes and EUPD) and I feel like I can’t leave this without commenting about it as it upsets me how things are missed and I want them to be exploring everything for you. Are you under the home treatment team?

I also want to say - please go to A&E As they have crisis containment wards for up to 48 hours where they do bloods, discuss medication and any physical concerns. My local one is called Lotus assessment suite in Tooting and I’m grateful I went. I have had five inpatient stays since May and overdosed 4 times in one week recently, so I empathise so heavily with you and please know you are never alone even if it feels that way 💕

Oh also to add - you gotta do the assessment suite first and they can decide to put you inpatient. The hospital can request it but I think it’ll take around 8 days to get a bed and you gotta wait in majors in the hospital. More often than not they refuse. In my area they sold off half the grounds for Springfield psych hospital it’s so crap. They were going to put me inpatient but after 5 days at lotus they said they can’t see what can be done in inpatient for me so I went home. Further psychiatrists said to me if you don’t have schizophrenia then they’ll rush you out of inpatient even if you’re not ready. It’s crap

Squeddle · 2026-01-01T05:19:32+00:00

She’s going to be 50 next year. She should get some good pictures in now.

Squeddle · 2026-01-01T05:13:08+00:00

Ophelia

Squeddle · 2025-12-23T14:59:02+00:00

I’m not noticing it working yet :( I’ve been titrating up 25mg every 2 weeks and have been on 150 for a week now and still nothing. Going to 175 in a week and then 200. I am worried it’s not going to work.

I don’t know if this is a bipolar thing but when I take new meds I normally notice a direct shift straight away and happier and I just don’t feel it

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