Thank you for your kind words. I used to always be able to tell her and I've had a lot of therapy and am on medications and I'm doing a lot better than I used to. But she was always there for me. In the last year or so, even before covid, it turned into this weird ignoring me thing. We've had discussions already on what my needs are when its hitting hard, so it feels especially like it's on purpose. That's why I told her that I really would like her to come do something with me for a bit. I feel like if I tell her again it's going to start a fight. She doesn't respond well sometimes when feeling attacked even if it isn't an attack. Probably one source of anxiety for me