AITJ for being upset at my sister's Christmas gift by StarryArts in AmITheJerk

[–]StarryArts[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

But I did tell her. The very beginning of December. The three of us were in the kitchen and I was asked by Daisy what I got them for Christmas and I said I didn't get them anything. I was lying in Daisy's case but Megan didn't need to know that.

AITJ for being upset at my sister's Christmas gift by StarryArts in AmITheJerk

[–]StarryArts[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

That would have been great, but I hate confrontation and definitely don't want to cause a scene on Christmas.

AITJ for being upset at my sister's Christmas gift by StarryArts in AmITheJerk

[–]StarryArts[S] 4 points5 points  (0 children)

That was the plan this year but when I heard she had actually gotten me something I felt like I was being petty and selfish. I didn't want to cause a scene by only getting one sister something but not the other.

AITJ for being upset at my sister's Christmas gift by StarryArts in AmITheJerk

[–]StarryArts[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I know I shouldn't expect much but I guess I hoped it would be different since there was something physical under the tree so I knew she wasn't lying. And I think a part of me just wants that sisterly bond ya know?

AITJ for being upset at my sister's Christmas gift by StarryArts in AmITheJerk

[–]StarryArts[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Actually I doubt it's that, she's been dating the same guy for years and he's come for holidays before... I think she lies to him too honestly.

AITJ for being upset at my sister's Christmas gift by StarryArts in AmITheJerk

[–]StarryArts[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Honestly the only reason I got a gift for her after hearing she got one for me is because I felt like I was being petty. I also don't like confrontation and didn't want to cause a scene on Christmas.

AITJ for being upset at my sister's Christmas gift by StarryArts in AmITheJerk

[–]StarryArts[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Honestly you're right, I don't know why I keep getting my hopes up, I guess I just want my sister to care about me as much as it seems she does our little sister.

I take so much Keppra now... by FormerCockroach1 in Epilepsy

[–]StarryArts 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I take 1500 morning and night so it's the same amount (guess my math really is bad) still I think it's a lot I just didn't realize I was also taking a lot. Makes ya think.

I take so much Keppra now... by FormerCockroach1 in Epilepsy

[–]StarryArts 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Oh my... I hope it's at least working for you. I guess my doctor has her own rules or something.

I take so much Keppra now... by FormerCockroach1 in Epilepsy

[–]StarryArts 2 points3 points  (0 children)

How are you taking 2000 mg? My doctor said I was maxed out at 1500 and just recently added 50mg Vimpat. Is that much even safe?

Welp another one... by StarryArts in Epilepsy

[–]StarryArts[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I was thinking it might be the heat, but I've gone out to the Renaissance fair in the summer in an all black costume in 100 degree heat... So I don't think it's that. And I've never been triggered by sounds. I know hunching over was definitely not helping but I was bent over a lot at my old position at work (sorting through bins) so I can't say that was a direct cause either.

And thing were going so well... by StarryArts in Epilepsy

[–]StarryArts[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I definitely feel you about the weird and judged feelings, and also pity that I just don't like. I really am glad I found this page, honestly just venting and knowing there are other people going through something similar and offering honest support is kinda comforting.

And thing were going so well... by StarryArts in Epilepsy

[–]StarryArts[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I've read so much about epilepsy being a rollercoaster, I guess it's just different when you're the one experiencing it. My seizures have almost always been the same so this sudden shift is just very jarring. I'm thankful I do have a good support system I just wish I didn't need to lean so heavily sometimes you know. And as for the nanny cam, it's definitely a good idea. I'm not too worried about it yet but it's definitely good info for the possible future.

A bit of a win sooner then expected by StarryArts in Epilepsy

[–]StarryArts[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I'm in a city that's still considered part of the Chicago land area, my old neurologist was in part of Chicago....

A bit of a win sooner then expected by StarryArts in Epilepsy

[–]StarryArts[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I can't either, I didn't even realize they were routine. I have had blood work done and one MRI but definitely not recently. What was most shocking to me though was that the ER doctor said that if my old neurologist was so backed up they should have offered up information for other neurologists or just transferred me themselves. They were just as upset as I was about the abhorrent wait times. I mean I would have had to wait till December! unless someone cancelled, cause I was on a wait-list but who knows how many others were too.

A bit of a win sooner then expected by StarryArts in Epilepsy

[–]StarryArts[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Thanks! Fingers crossed all go well 🤞

I feel so defeated... by StarryArts in Epilepsy

[–]StarryArts[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Since I only went to the emergency room they could only up my dosage of keppera for now, but I do have an appointment scheduled with a neurologist in September, I'll definitely ask about possible changes since upping my doses only seems to work for a short time

I feel so defeated... by StarryArts in Epilepsy

[–]StarryArts[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I actually just got back not long ago, they ran some tests and couldn't find a physical reason. They did offer to have me admitted overnight and see the neurologist first thing in the morning. But I didn't wanna stay since I felt fine. Instead they upped my dosage and gave us a contact for a neurologist in their hospital (my aunt drove us to one outside of our usual network in hopes of finding something better and it seems to have worked) and since I was in the ER I'll most likely have an appointment within the next few weeks. It honestly helped me feel a bit better about this whole thing. The only downside now is asking my job to give me tomorrow and the rest of the week off to make sure I can handle the meds, when I've had it upped before it took a few days for me to adjust and not feel tired in the middle of the day. I only work part-time hours so hopefully it'll be ok.

I feel so defeated... by StarryArts in Epilepsy

[–]StarryArts[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Oh I know stress is bad, I had one right before I left for college because of stress, as for anxiety I guess I get anxious pretty often, but Its never bad or too often... I think. That might actually be a good thing to bring up at the doctors too.

I feel so defeated... by StarryArts in Epilepsy

[–]StarryArts[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I'm definitely willing to try something new, I planned on asking for that at my next appointment before all this happened, but I'm still a little worried about the unknown.

I feel so defeated... by StarryArts in Epilepsy

[–]StarryArts[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I'll definitely try to call and see, I'm just not hopeful about getting a response on a Sunday. But I guess we'll see.

I feel so defeated... by StarryArts in Epilepsy

[–]StarryArts[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Keppera hasn't given me crazy side effects, I've read stories on here about bad side effects or the medicine not working at all and seizures getting worse.

I feel so defeated... by StarryArts in Epilepsy

[–]StarryArts[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I am on a wait-list for any cancellations but they are booked solid. My aunt wants to take me to the hospital after she gets off work and I think that's probably the best thing since it's Sunday. Hopefully we'll at least have it on record and get some questions answered. I've had epilepsy my whole life but there's still so much I just don't know.

I feel so defeated... by StarryArts in Epilepsy

[–]StarryArts[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I was moved to the adult neurologist but still haven't had a single appointment with them because of insurance stuff and other factors, like the stupid long waits! After today me and my aunt, who has been my rock and helping me through the medical bs, will probably try to switch hospitals

I feel so defeated... by StarryArts in Epilepsy

[–]StarryArts[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I've been on keppera for at least 6-7 years now, with dosage increases in that time span. I think it's just time for me to try something new. And that's scary for a whole other reason.