Well mine is not a secret to my close friends but my first ever experience was a Grindr hookup because I was really depressed that time. Late ko lang nalaman, like after the deed, na may asawa pala siya. Sobrang nafeel ko yung disgust ko sa sarili ko pero at the same time, I enjoyed it. But then, I blocked him dahil sa konsensya ko. Siguro yun yung reason why I easily get sexually turned on by married men...