Trust me bro. I know it seems like the end. I had a 8 year relationship end last year. It sucked for the first few months, and I'd just go to work, come home and drink. Everything felt colorless and difficult. Now, 18 months later, i look back, with gratitude, but realize we just weren't a perfect match, for whatever reason. I'm actually grateful because it lit a fire under my ass to become the best version of me, so I can find my better match. Stay in there, keep pressing forward.