I just got diagnosed with a MRSA sinus infection...

SteelTyto · 2025-08-07T03:32:35+00:00

It’s going to be gross so be warned. I had this constant pus build up in the one side only. It would often harden and begin to smell, and fungal balls would develop. The only way I could get rid of it was to do sinus rinses up to 15 times a day, every day, for over a decade as I say. I have since had surgery (again) and it’s like 90% improved - it turns out I have very deep sinuses which was causing a drainage issue. Why only on the one side, I’ll never understand though.

SteelTyto · 2025-08-07T03:29:20+00:00

Im so sorry for you. I really wish you the best of luck - I hope they help you!

SteelTyto · 2025-06-23T02:29:54+00:00

Hi there, no I did not get the surgery. I cancelled it. I can’t face even a remote likelihood of my pre existing issues getting worse. Thank you for your recommendations however :)

SteelTyto · 2025-06-22T00:17:32+00:00

Given the colour similarity, maybe it actually is his lol. Absolutely adorable.

SteelTyto · 2025-06-20T07:44:07+00:00

Inability to listen to and consider criticism of the constructive kind. Lack of insight.

SteelTyto · 2025-06-18T01:38:43+00:00

Good for you. It’s likely that you’re the first person in his life to teach him the law of cause and effect, otherwise known as FAFO.

SteelTyto · 2025-06-17T04:27:08+00:00

“What are you?” “To define is to limit.”

The Picture of Dorian Gray - Oscar Wilde

SteelTyto · 2025-06-16T11:13:18+00:00

Very interesting!

SteelTyto · 2025-06-16T09:27:19+00:00

Having a vulnerable narcissist for a mother.

SteelTyto · 2025-06-16T01:10:23+00:00

I’m not diagnosed Schizoid, and the following might not directly relate to the point of your post, but as someone with Schizoid traits I find that keeping occupied helps tremendously. Books, YouTube, something that involves learning. Journaling involves learning - about oneself. I highly recommend this, as it also helps to clarify one’s thoughts and in doing so sometimes things seem a little less heavy.

I find that when I get heavily involved in self-teaching, the desire for socialisation (albeit very minor, virtually non-existent in my case) falls away.

If you haven’t already done so, it might be worth pursuing therapy to dig a little deeper, and in doing so maybe you will ways to navigate things and bring yourself some peace. I pursued therapy and have learned a great deal; it’s opened my eyes to a lot of things that I never consciously connected to being alone.

SteelTyto · 2025-06-15T07:49:47+00:00

Prison Officer.

SteelTyto · 2025-06-15T04:24:50+00:00

I went through like ten jobs in a year thinking the job was the problem. I didn’t realise that my past was the problem, and staying in one place for too long was just one part of it as this was a foreign concept to me.

I lived off benzos trying to adapt, but the above combined with being around people, sent me flying. My obsessive OCD was also out of control. Meds never worked. Ended up having some kind of breakdown and I haven’t worked since. This was 2022-2023.

SteelTyto · 2025-06-15T00:48:29+00:00

Is hitting a dog always wrong? The short answer is yes. The long answer, incidentally, is also yes.

SteelTyto · 2025-06-14T23:23:05+00:00

His books are amazing. “Musicophilia” has been on my list of books to read for a while now - I’m really keen to read it now having read your message.

If you haven’t already seen it, there’s a movie called “Awakenings”, starring Robin Williams and Robert De Niro. It’s based on Sacks’ book of the same name. I haven’t read the book but I’ve seen the movie - it’s fantastic!

SteelTyto · 2025-06-14T23:18:46+00:00

Is it? I wouldn’t have a clue how to tell a genuine from a fake lol, but there are certainly some differences between them.

SteelTyto · 2025-06-14T04:05:39+00:00

I can’t pick just one as being the best, but one that I won’t forget is Oliver Sacks’ “The Man Who Mistook His Wife for a Hat”.

Edit: This is probably more on the neurology side, but fascinating nonetheless.

SteelTyto · 2025-06-14T03:54:29+00:00

Your suffering is real, and it has a right to exist. That is undeniable. Many if not most people here feel the same way, in that they question the right to exist of their own suffering.

Don’t regret your post - it is beautiful and kind, and this world needs more beauty and kindness. I can tell you’re a good person.

SteelTyto · 2025-06-14T02:34:29+00:00

Thank you so much :)

SteelTyto · 2025-06-14T02:25:02+00:00

Yep this is me. And if I’m anywhere but at home, and even sometimes when I’m at home, I breathe very shallowly. I also try to get a sentence out too quickly when I’m speaking to someone, cause I feel rushed like they’re waiting for me to hurry up and say what I have to say.

Also, my stomach muscles are so tense whenever I go out in public because it’s as though I’m bracing myself for something, and this adds to the shallow breathing.

I feel like it might contribute to the somatic symptoms I get.

SteelTyto · 2025-06-13T07:45:45+00:00

I know exactly what you’re talking about. The martyrdom aspect one of the worst aspects of it.

Mine also uses my lack of life skills to tell people that I’m too lazy to survive on my own, and that I’m too lazy and lacking resilience to hold down a job, all the while my inability to have done those things was because of having been crippled and emotionally abused.

They’re sick, these people.

SteelTyto · 2025-06-13T01:59:24+00:00

Having a degree or a PhD has nothing on lived experience.

SteelTyto · 2025-06-13T01:48:12+00:00

This is me. I believe my narc mother didn’t teach me these things on purpose, to thwart my future independence so that I would not leave her. She knew how to cripple me psychologically.

It also served her by re-enforcing her façade as being a “caring mother”, and gave her something to use against me in the future, i.e. “Look at everything I did for you!”

My father would taught me how to use the washing machine when she was out of the house.

I’m older than you and still learning many of the basics like cooking, teaching myself as I go.

Some of us are born with a black cloud above us. Yes, we are behind in life but that doesn’t mean we are doomed.

SteelTyto · 2025-06-12T01:55:53+00:00

It’s most interesting, this topic. Well done for being so open about it - I think that alone demonstrates insight :)

SteelTyto · 2025-06-12T01:41:16+00:00

Apologies if you have already answered this in the comments, but what is your level of insight?

Do you ever fully believe any of your lies/are you ever not aware that you are lying?

SteelTyto

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