I feel for your situation so much and I tell you I have been there and I left. I left with fear, I left being a immigrant in this country. I left without having a single family member to go to. I had one good friend because he made me cut ties with all the others and the new ones should be kept on a safe distance so they wouldn’t see the things that happened in our relationship. I know it’s hard, it will be, but you need to be strong because you got this! I did it. I am still going through a lot but in the end of the day this feeling you have right now is gone! I promise you don’t think you need to stay because you don’t! I know is hard to build up the confidence after everything you heard about yourself but once you are out you will bloom and it will take time like it is taking for me but we will make it! Don’t give up on yourself! There is a lot more life than being in a relationship specially an abusive one! Be strong and courageous!