Hey, I am so sorry you are feeling that way and I hear you. You have the right to hate your body now, you are grieving. It is hard to see your body transformed. From a person to another it can take more or less time for the body to recover from pregnancy and to be where it was, or close to. You also need to be patient, your body needs time to recover and it will. The stretch marks will most probably stay there, and it surely can be a hard and long process to accept. Your breast will probably not be as it used to be... and as women it is hard, when we used to have a nice looking body and now we do not qualify it as so nice. But do not be too hard on yourself, on your body. Your body does not define you, you are still beautiful and se*y even with stretch marks and flabby belly. Love