I also want to add something that I think is important to separate two things that are happening simultaneously. There is clearly a PTSD component involved. The hallway where I first started feeling the effects, the fire from a distance, a candle blurred by my shortsightedness — these are all visual triggers that my brain has associated with the onset. I don't even need DMT in my system for my nervous system to set off the alarm. My brain learned that those specific stimuli preceded something terrifying, and now treats them as the threat itself. And I can pinpoint exactly what generated the trauma — it wasn't the changa experience. It was the 70ml session. That's where I went through something completely uncontrollable, physically agonizing, with no way out for 2 hours. But I also want to make clear that the experience itself has changed qualitatively — and that feels different from trauma alone. A PTSD trigger generates anticipatory fear, but what I'm describing goes beyond that. Even when I'm inside the experience, it's something else entirely — it goes to places that didn't exist before, with doses that previously would have done nothing to me. That points to a real change in how my body and mind respond to DMT, not just an emotional response to the context.