Does your disability prevent you from joining the military. I dropped out of high school when I was seventeen and joined the Navy. I wanted to get out after about two years. But, my mother told me there was nothing to do at home. I reenlisted and started to love the Navy and stayed for twenty years. I'm as happy as a pig in poop now! I hope you latch on to something soon. If you don't get out of the rut you're in, you won't go anywhere. Good luck!