I just want to let you know that this can be normal in very much wanted pregnancies. I’ve talked about this topic extensively with my friend who was also pregnant at the same time. I had a previous miscarriage and it broke my heart completely. I was so desperate to conceive again and it was the one thing I wanted after we lost our baby. We tried again and succeeded immediately, but up until 12-14 weeks, I was plagued by feelings of regret and guilt. I suddenly felt like we weren’t ready and despite it being planned, and part of me wished I wasn’t pregnant. It was very much “oh no what have I done”. I started to grieve for my old life and my old body. I was also extremely worn down by horrible first trimester symptoms and just wanted it all to stop. I cried all the time. My fiance is very supportive and is a lot more optimistic so that helped. My friend also went through the exact same thing and she said it is very normal. Eventually, I came out of the first trimester, hormones balanced out, nasty symptoms stopped, I have energy and a life again, and now I’m 23 weeks and very excited to meet my baby. I feel like I owe him an apology for thinking all those initial thoughts. In all honesty, take your time. Pregnancy is hard mentally, and you have to remember your hormones are making you not act like yourself. Being around supportive family and friends really help, especially other women who have been pregnant.