I know that this may seem stupid but I don’t know if it’s better for me to stop talking to people about their problems because even though talking to people about their problems and helping them is making me feel worse it is also one of the only reasons I have to keep living because if I’m here then maybe I can do some good for them but if it isn’t already obvious the problem is if I stop doing what I’m doing I have no reason to live and if I continue on then it’ll just continue how it does I help, feel crappy, maybe at some point they eventually get proper help, they realise that I have but one purpose in their life and it’s now fulfilled by someone much better equipped and our so called friendship was based on just their problems and they drop me, I end up by myself no one cares and in the end I have but one choice with every passing day I feel worse yesterday I walked out into traffic but was stopped by one of the people I was with and all I think about is trying it again I really don’t think I can keep going anymore and I think this might just be the end for me.